09-15-2021, 05:58 AM
Day 96 / 180 ON
4 loops Hybrid.
For a lot of time, I had the impression that the reason I became so shy, fearful and suppressed my masculine core, was because I was bullied and had a hard time in high school. But yesterday I actually realized / remember that I was like that well even in my childhood years, since I was little. In the first couple of years of my life, I was raised by my grandmother, and she instilled a lot of fears in me. She had good intentions, but her over-protective, fearful and precautious nature have not done me good and stunted my development. She was always very self-aware of potential dangers in the environments(dangerous dogs, burning myself, falling off the bed, being in conflict with other boys...) so much that she molded my personality a lot.
As a boy / man in this life, you have to develop courage, boldness, to explore this world and expand your knowledge / experiences. This is what I've been lacking.
4 loops Hybrid.
For a lot of time, I had the impression that the reason I became so shy, fearful and suppressed my masculine core, was because I was bullied and had a hard time in high school. But yesterday I actually realized / remember that I was like that well even in my childhood years, since I was little. In the first couple of years of my life, I was raised by my grandmother, and she instilled a lot of fears in me. She had good intentions, but her over-protective, fearful and precautious nature have not done me good and stunted my development. She was always very self-aware of potential dangers in the environments(dangerous dogs, burning myself, falling off the bed, being in conflict with other boys...) so much that she molded my personality a lot.
As a boy / man in this life, you have to develop courage, boldness, to explore this world and expand your knowledge / experiences. This is what I've been lacking.
