OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless

[GreekGod22]

Day 71 / 180 ON

Played a loop last night just as I was drifting to sleep. I had several dream sequences involving my father(who passed away in 2012 from cancer, when I was 20). In one of the scenes / sequences, I felt very relieved knowing that he is alive and well and that I can do everything that is needed to keep him healthy and strong.

In the years after he died, I have blamed myself for not showing more affection to him. I also had this belief that I could save him. I could have researched about potential cancer therapies myself and save him...
I am wondering how all this related to fear. Perhaps I still haven't let go of him. When I was a child, I felt safe and protected with him. With him being gone, I now have to face the world on my own.

@Shannon Any thoughts on why would OFv3 trigger dreams of my father?

Tonight I pulled another woman back to my place. We kissed and touched each other, but we didn't had sex. I'm not even mad, I am happy with the way I behaved: very masculine and assertive, was able to hold deep eye contact with her.

A pattern I notice: whenever I raise the volume to 12/15 on mobile phone, I start getting more intense reactions in my body: especially in my stomach area / solar plexus. It must be triggering a lot of fear and intense emotion buried in my subconscious.