Allot has changed for me since we last spoke, It is hard to put into words what has happened for me, but I have been noticing a steady increase in my singing/rapping, from TID from NSLW, I have become a local celebrity within from my group of friends & people on my social media, Woman are all attracted to me now, I am also noticing that I am posting really beautiful videos of me singing that is very lovable., I am changing my self image of myself, I fucked up my reputation while I was addicted to drugs & when I wasn't doing good, Now I am a leader in my community like a role model, & everyone including my family is giving me allot of respect and love.
My music has progressed exponentially, I got sponsored by a producer I met on Facebook, He's all the way out in Nigeria, I manifested him, yeah I know it sounds fishy when you hear "Nigeria' but he's legit, He produces beats and he is a genius, He is like Dr Dre. I have never heard anyone that makes instrumentals like he does. He is really good at what he does. & his advice has been going a long way for me.
He usually charges 500 for rights to his beats, and 250 for mastering a song, He is giving me FREE mixing/mastering and unlimited rights, because he believes I have the protentional to be one of the best rappers in the world & doesn't want money to get in the way of making the album.
I have progressed allot from the other things I have shown you guys , progressed way more, also he taught me how to record properly so it sounds better, I am now writing and listening to his advice, like to take my time and not rush, and focus more on writing and making it perfect.
I am a local celebrity now & feel it in all aspects. It's insane! I feel like a god.
I feel lonely too.
I had the most beautiful intense human experience I ever had with my ex gf in Colombia we were fighting and she told me to never talk to her again, so I video chatted her later & asked her if she was serious about me and her not talking again, and I asked her face to face if she still has feelings for me, she told me she doesnt.
I wasn't affected by the rejection at all, but fast forward to later, when I sent her a video I posted of me singing Lonely by Akon, all while I'm laughing in it, in a very melancholy way, kinda like im serious but joking at the same time, it was super lovable and cute and she video chatted me right away and she likes me again. it sparked the fire again.
things are moving fast for me, I feel like I'm in a dream, this is fucked up. I don't even know what to think anymore. It's cool being a celebrity but seeing people becoming intimidated by me sometimes or feel insecure is not a good feeling, but luckily I have had mostly positive responses from people, NSLW is definitely making me more lovable as a person.
And OF is working STRONG, for the first time ever I felt NO ANXIETY when I video chatter her, I was able to talk without my voice being restricted, I always felt like i had a leash around my neck when I used to talk but not today.
THIS IS HUGE.
My album should be done by next year, were spending allot of time on this, but I believe I am going to be a future Legend. & everyone around me believes it too.
my Instagram is iliyaa94toinfinity if you want to see my singing videos, and my snapchat is Rayhon26. I'm currently on what the Beatles used to fuel there music.
edit: another women just messaged me, said we should have a date night after she saw my Mr. Lonely FB story. I told her I am down to see her but not monogamous & she said she's okay with being casual & that she didn't want anything serious. (shes just saying that she really does) I liked this women 8 months ago, & I made out with her 11 years ago, but other then that, I never seen her in person but we talked allot & she's one of my fans, seen my recovery and progression..
My music has progressed exponentially, I got sponsored by a producer I met on Facebook, He's all the way out in Nigeria, I manifested him, yeah I know it sounds fishy when you hear "Nigeria' but he's legit, He produces beats and he is a genius, He is like Dr Dre. I have never heard anyone that makes instrumentals like he does. He is really good at what he does. & his advice has been going a long way for me.
He usually charges 500 for rights to his beats, and 250 for mastering a song, He is giving me FREE mixing/mastering and unlimited rights, because he believes I have the protentional to be one of the best rappers in the world & doesn't want money to get in the way of making the album.
I have progressed allot from the other things I have shown you guys , progressed way more, also he taught me how to record properly so it sounds better, I am now writing and listening to his advice, like to take my time and not rush, and focus more on writing and making it perfect.
I am a local celebrity now & feel it in all aspects. It's insane! I feel like a god.
I feel lonely too.
I had the most beautiful intense human experience I ever had with my ex gf in Colombia we were fighting and she told me to never talk to her again, so I video chatted her later & asked her if she was serious about me and her not talking again, and I asked her face to face if she still has feelings for me, she told me she doesnt.
I wasn't affected by the rejection at all, but fast forward to later, when I sent her a video I posted of me singing Lonely by Akon, all while I'm laughing in it, in a very melancholy way, kinda like im serious but joking at the same time, it was super lovable and cute and she video chatted me right away and she likes me again. it sparked the fire again.
things are moving fast for me, I feel like I'm in a dream, this is fucked up. I don't even know what to think anymore. It's cool being a celebrity but seeing people becoming intimidated by me sometimes or feel insecure is not a good feeling, but luckily I have had mostly positive responses from people, NSLW is definitely making me more lovable as a person.
And OF is working STRONG, for the first time ever I felt NO ANXIETY when I video chatter her, I was able to talk without my voice being restricted, I always felt like i had a leash around my neck when I used to talk but not today.
THIS IS HUGE.
My album should be done by next year, were spending allot of time on this, but I believe I am going to be a future Legend. & everyone around me believes it too.
my Instagram is iliyaa94toinfinity if you want to see my singing videos, and my snapchat is Rayhon26. I'm currently on what the Beatles used to fuel there music.
edit: another women just messaged me, said we should have a date night after she saw my Mr. Lonely FB story. I told her I am down to see her but not monogamous & she said she's okay with being casual & that she didn't want anything serious. (shes just saying that she really does) I liked this women 8 months ago, & I made out with her 11 years ago, but other then that, I never seen her in person but we talked allot & she's one of my fans, seen my recovery and progression..
