07-28-2021, 10:05 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-28-2021, 02:03 PM by tolgaocal80.)
(07-28-2021, 09:34 AM)Superman Wrote: I seem to be going through my own cycle of bad events happening. Almost 10 years exactly since this exact situation happened. I don't know if it's gotten any easier for me. I don't know what to do or how I should handle it. I don't know if I should try to handle it the same way, even though it didn't work out in the end. Or should I try something different and pull away completely, just give up on it and remove myself from the situation.
Both paths are painful. And neither one is guaranteed to have the same outcome as before, but everything feels so similar and remembering how I felt back then and how much I hated myself for being so weak. I want to believe I'm stronger now and that I'm a different person, but I find myself wanting to do the same old things falling into the same patterns. Only this time I do it with a little more conscious intention, understanding what I'm doing and what the result will probably be.
To summarize the situation, 10 years ago I was in a relationship and the girl went cold on me all of a sudden. I tried my best to "win her back" but every day every thing I tried just ended up breaking me little by little, and sometimes a lot. I broke down a lot during that time, and it was one of the lowest points in my life. When I finally gave up chasing I felt so free.
Fast forward 10 years and it seems that my relationship of 5 years is going the same way. It's not 100% confirmed that it's the same situation but it feels so similar to me.
Maybe UMS2 caused this shift in my life to occur. Force me to focus more on money than love. Maybe I'm meant to be wealthy and alone.
I still do see a path forward with UMS2. I just hope that my emotional state can hold up and that I don't ruin whatever UMS is trying to accomplish.
thats why I think it is the most important thing in a man's life is becoming an alpha male and doing good with women. This may be the most important and only way to win in life(for men), because everything is about surviving and sex. Every fucking thing is involved with these, I didn't see rather than these two. Maybe because of my age I am inexperienced about life and thinking like that. Idk, my honest thoughts.
I dont think trying to"win her back" will work, all thing you did to "win" her back probably is a very good way to lose her.
Maybe you are just growing and your awareness expanding so, your current girlfriend and lifestyle is no more for you. You are changing to better man? If this is the case, why it must be bad for you? Maybe your past relationship wasn't good enough for you because of that same reason, and you released it?
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"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker