07-27-2021, 01:33 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-27-2021, 01:38 PM by tolgaocal80.)
Day 40
I am realizing, my self-esteem, self-respect levels are going to the MOON, this is really a new feeling for me that now I don't accept ANY kind of bs don't care how much it is.
I have a hundred percent narcissict- freak kind of mother, and lately I have being in fight with her, because you never believe what the fuck she was (is) doing to our family, to me, she is really really a bad human, I had seen her many times in my dreams as a demonic creature. I know you cant change a narcissict person especially if it is a female. But I really get tired of taking damage, being manipulated from her. I am still living with them, and soon I will be gone.
Anyway, because of my long AM runs, I really have no tolerant (not a little) to manipulation, get tricked, bs, humilation, embarrassment, physical-emotional abuse, I mean I have no tolerant for these shits. I don't care if how much powerfull or agressive the other one is, I just will not except these damaging and harmfull behaviours from ANYONE.
and, I started to read some alpha male- dating materials again, if I see something very valuable I will share here.
Sometimes, actually rare moments, I have a feeling that the freedom I always wanted to have, I cant be able to explain it right, but sometimes I am having a feeling that shows me what a real freedom is.
I am realizing, my self-esteem, self-respect levels are going to the MOON, this is really a new feeling for me that now I don't accept ANY kind of bs don't care how much it is.
I have a hundred percent narcissict- freak kind of mother, and lately I have being in fight with her, because you never believe what the fuck she was (is) doing to our family, to me, she is really really a bad human, I had seen her many times in my dreams as a demonic creature. I know you cant change a narcissict person especially if it is a female. But I really get tired of taking damage, being manipulated from her. I am still living with them, and soon I will be gone.
Anyway, because of my long AM runs, I really have no tolerant (not a little) to manipulation, get tricked, bs, humilation, embarrassment, physical-emotional abuse, I mean I have no tolerant for these shits. I don't care if how much powerfull or agressive the other one is, I just will not except these damaging and harmfull behaviours from ANYONE.
and, I started to read some alpha male- dating materials again, if I see something very valuable I will share here.
Sometimes, actually rare moments, I have a feeling that the freedom I always wanted to have, I cant be able to explain it right, but sometimes I am having a feeling that shows me what a real freedom is.
AM6-1(4.19)--AM6-2(11.19)--SE-5.5G--AM6-3(9.20)--SE 5.5G(3.21)--AM6-S7(6.21)--SM3-1(7.2021)--AM6-4(1.2022)
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
