07-05-2021, 08:52 AM
Day 4 Off
I feared this is gonna be a bad day. And though it wasn't great, it wasn't terrible either. It was so-so.
Like I mentioned before I took a day off. I can afford it as I estimate my work for this week is about 3 days worth. I have 3 projects to do, each should take a day tops plus one is very minor as most of it is already done. Some of this work will be preliminary and will be followed by some low-level tedious work which requires little effort so I'm not worried. Assuming everything will go well, which it may not. But that will be a worry for the next week.
It may well be that I focus more on this so I notice this more but I can see more fear creeping in. It's probably a matter of perspective and rationalization but I cannot help but wonder how many decisions and habits are guided by fear of one sort or another. Its tiresome really to even think about it, how much I'll have to go through and sort.
I feared this is gonna be a bad day. And though it wasn't great, it wasn't terrible either. It was so-so.
Like I mentioned before I took a day off. I can afford it as I estimate my work for this week is about 3 days worth. I have 3 projects to do, each should take a day tops plus one is very minor as most of it is already done. Some of this work will be preliminary and will be followed by some low-level tedious work which requires little effort so I'm not worried. Assuming everything will go well, which it may not. But that will be a worry for the next week.
It may well be that I focus more on this so I notice this more but I can see more fear creeping in. It's probably a matter of perspective and rationalization but I cannot help but wonder how many decisions and habits are guided by fear of one sort or another. Its tiresome really to even think about it, how much I'll have to go through and sort.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
