07-04-2021, 01:28 AM
Day 3 1 masked
Listening to the sub starts to feel less like a lobotomy. I actually start to fell encouraged and purposeful. Today will still be a wasted day probably, but not as much as yesterday to be sure. I hope to do some cleaning today as I will be moving out in a month as some places in the flat like balcony are a disgrace. I wouldn't care about this if not for the fact that I don't wanna leave this for the landlord to settle. There's also lots of stuff to go through when it comes to what to throw into trash and stuff like that.
I had some dreams today, nothing I'd remember. One was interesting where I was doing some bureaucratic work and a clerk was telling me some useless stuff and when I realized this doesn't make sense he started looping "a" sound like a computer about to crash. Before I managed to fall asleep though I had this though stream about what a shitty friend I am and I was thinking about all the people I considered friends throughout the years and I'm no longer in contact with them. I tend to ignore it and move on but now there was an amount of shame around it.
I have this urge to play Morrowind or some other gave of my childhood. Morrowind here is the most important one as I've played it last summer, back when the world was simpler for me. I may do myself a present and setup Morrowind with some mods to play it some day soon but not right now. You may think that I'm exaggerating but this is an involved but quite pleasant process for me. Last year it took me 3 days I think. Next week I'll be leaving for my mom's place to spend a week or so with her, if I'll be still interested with the idea I'll do it.
Listening to the sub starts to feel less like a lobotomy. I actually start to fell encouraged and purposeful. Today will still be a wasted day probably, but not as much as yesterday to be sure. I hope to do some cleaning today as I will be moving out in a month as some places in the flat like balcony are a disgrace. I wouldn't care about this if not for the fact that I don't wanna leave this for the landlord to settle. There's also lots of stuff to go through when it comes to what to throw into trash and stuff like that.
I had some dreams today, nothing I'd remember. One was interesting where I was doing some bureaucratic work and a clerk was telling me some useless stuff and when I realized this doesn't make sense he started looping "a" sound like a computer about to crash. Before I managed to fall asleep though I had this though stream about what a shitty friend I am and I was thinking about all the people I considered friends throughout the years and I'm no longer in contact with them. I tend to ignore it and move on but now there was an amount of shame around it.
I have this urge to play Morrowind or some other gave of my childhood. Morrowind here is the most important one as I've played it last summer, back when the world was simpler for me. I may do myself a present and setup Morrowind with some mods to play it some day soon but not right now. You may think that I'm exaggerating but this is an involved but quite pleasant process for me. Last year it took me 3 days I think. Next week I'll be leaving for my mom's place to spend a week or so with her, if I'll be still interested with the idea I'll do it.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
