06-11-2021, 02:40 AM
(06-11-2021, 12:08 AM)Darwin Wrote: Am finding it really helpful to continue to outline what I'm afraid of in any given moment. It helps me move into a rational space. But I seem to lack energy and drive to really grapple with what's in front of me and i don't think that's really fear. It's more like Why do I even care?, what I do is meaningless and I don't really believe what I do will make a difference.
Hi Darwin, I also experience this void of meaning and direction. Currently running MLS4 and will start OFv3 later this month. MLS is funny in the sense, that it brings results directly if there is no fear blocking it and if there's fear then it will bring the fear into your conscious mind and make you process it.
So what I have gathered about these feelings of meaninglessness and not making a difference is that it IS fear - the fear of change. If you have the energy and drive to grapple with what's in front of you then something will change. And a part of the subconscious seems to be fearing this change.
That's what I have gathered in my case, maybe this helps you on your journey.
Have a great weekend
MM
