OFv2 - Dominant & Fearless

[Shannon]

I am at a complete l;oss how you could wonder if it was OFv2 or not.

@Shannon  Are you saying that it's a good sign? As in 'it gets worse before it gets better'?

I'm saying that you are responding to the influence of the program in pretty obvious ways.  It's negative because you have a lot of fear and you chose to use a version of the program we moved on from because it was not able to prevent such responses when the person had a lot of fears.  It can still work, but the process isn't going to be as easy to handle in the beginning.  

Your compulsive desires to drink and masturbate are tactics your subconscious has learned to use to cope with and escape the fear that you are being directed to process.  Insecurity regarding your looks is a direct descendant of fear - insecurity is fear.  So what you're displaying is that you have a lot of fear, and the program isn't powerful enough in that version to work without triggering fear and the reactions you use to cope and try to escape.

Again, that is why I upgraded and improved not just FRM but the OF itself.  In cases of extreme fear, it was not as effective as I wanted it to be at causing the user to process the fear without triggering more of it, and not as effective as I wanted for it to be in terms of shielding the user's conscious mind from the processing and release of the fears and their causes.

What you're describing is what we saw a lot of during OFv2's run.  Not everybody, but enough that when I had a way to improve on it, I did.

If you don't want to use v3, then you're going to have to accept that the process may not always be fun or easy with the level of fear that you have, but it can still be successful in its goal.  v3 will be much faster, easier to run and more effective, but v2 is still no slouch.