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Day 12 ON - Sun 30 May - ON #2
Played and slept and woke tired as usual. Nothing to report there.
Only thing of significance today are:
1) Didnt feel as anxious it seems maybe when arguing with bro or getting into an issue. Will see if this is temporary or actually a change as time goes on.
2) I could be wrong but even today when speaking to my family or rather members of my family it doesnt feel like im holding back but being more direct in a good way. I do behave this way at times so its hard for me to say if its a change or not but again noting it down as im seeing this behaviour and wondering about it.
3) Whilst sat with friends watching a movie, was thinking about the tough 6months ahead of exercising, eating and changing my diet to something healthier and also to cram as much into my head as is possible before I finish the course. I did feel some anxiety and fear at some point but then it faded as usual but noting it down to see if this changes over time. As have reported in the past I sometimes do switch away from such feelings or being apathetic as I described it.
4) I as usual around 3am finally got to my computer to check emails/messages of the day and to come to this forum however today I went to an email that my university sent me 2 days ago with homework for us to do and submit by Monday of next week (7days time). I felt this would be easy so didnt really put any mind or attention to it. HOWEVER tonight as I came on not intending to do anything but the regular above I instead went to this email and attempted the 2 pieces of homework. The first I couldnt find answers to so fear crept in and I got anxious a little and then realised I cant find the answers so messaged a friend to look into this as I cant and then (ah thats given me an idea to email another friend about it lol) I went and attempted the 2nd piece of homework and now at 5.10am completed it. I had no reason to except that I felt I really should do a little each day but instead I just got on with it and got it done lol Now is this the sub? or is this my usual tendency to take action when I am near a deadline well I dont know for sure but what I do know is that in the past I WOULD ALWAYS take action last minute, I mean for homework/work I would do it literally the night before as most procrastinators do and would however this time I did it early and boy do I feel happy haha
Im not trying to tempt fate here, jinx anything or speak to soon but if this really is the sub then fucking bring it on baby yeah!!!! lol
now starts my days off from listening so time for me to read the forum and then sleep
Day 12 ON - Sun 30 May - ON #2
Played and slept and woke tired as usual. Nothing to report there.
Only thing of significance today are:
1) Didnt feel as anxious it seems maybe when arguing with bro or getting into an issue. Will see if this is temporary or actually a change as time goes on.
2) I could be wrong but even today when speaking to my family or rather members of my family it doesnt feel like im holding back but being more direct in a good way. I do behave this way at times so its hard for me to say if its a change or not but again noting it down as im seeing this behaviour and wondering about it.
3) Whilst sat with friends watching a movie, was thinking about the tough 6months ahead of exercising, eating and changing my diet to something healthier and also to cram as much into my head as is possible before I finish the course. I did feel some anxiety and fear at some point but then it faded as usual but noting it down to see if this changes over time. As have reported in the past I sometimes do switch away from such feelings or being apathetic as I described it.
4) I as usual around 3am finally got to my computer to check emails/messages of the day and to come to this forum however today I went to an email that my university sent me 2 days ago with homework for us to do and submit by Monday of next week (7days time). I felt this would be easy so didnt really put any mind or attention to it. HOWEVER tonight as I came on not intending to do anything but the regular above I instead went to this email and attempted the 2 pieces of homework. The first I couldnt find answers to so fear crept in and I got anxious a little and then realised I cant find the answers so messaged a friend to look into this as I cant and then (ah thats given me an idea to email another friend about it lol) I went and attempted the 2nd piece of homework and now at 5.10am completed it. I had no reason to except that I felt I really should do a little each day but instead I just got on with it and got it done lol Now is this the sub? or is this my usual tendency to take action when I am near a deadline well I dont know for sure but what I do know is that in the past I WOULD ALWAYS take action last minute, I mean for homework/work I would do it literally the night before as most procrastinators do and would however this time I did it early and boy do I feel happy haha
Im not trying to tempt fate here, jinx anything or speak to soon but if this really is the sub then fucking bring it on baby yeah!!!! lol
now starts my days off from listening so time for me to read the forum and then sleep
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
