05-25-2021, 09:56 AM
Yes I should have listed the fears in my original post:
Social anxiety which is almost gone, there is about 10-20% left to eliminate. I've been in leadership positions at work so on a regular basis I have had to speak to a room full of people which used to terrify me. If I knew I was going to have to give a presentation I would worry about it so much that it would ruin the days/weeks prior to having to give the big speech. I tried meditation and it does work but its a long term solution and won't give instant results other than some relaxation. I've tried many different relaxation techniques and they will work to some degree. Other techniques that can work require repetition, almost everything requires some kind of repetition because of the way our subconscious minds work and all the mental baggage that we've accumulated.
At the height of my social anxiety I would constantly feel afraid of social interaction, regular things like having a conversation would be tough for me even if the conversation was over the phone.
Other fears which are pretty much gone is that I would constantly think about dying, this resulted in having panic attacks on a regular basis.
Other fears include fear of driving over bridges, certain roads and highways, general feeling of uneasiness while alone.
Most of my fears are associated with the social anxiety or lack of self esteem and self confidence. My dad has Narcissistic Personality Disorder which is a nice way of saying he was a narcissist so countless years of being told your not good enough, or always finding your faults, always moving the goal post, constant criticism took its toll on me and created lots of insecurities. My dad would talk about me to other people telling including family members telling them I'm taking advantage of him, that I'm sick, that I'm not living up to expectations, etc.
These experiences also led to me always being very hard on myself. I never thought I was good enough whether it was with women or on the job, doing business, having relationships with friends, etc. It didn't ruin my life but it made things difficult. Having any type of fear is bad but social anxiety and general anxiety is like a prison because you alter your life to avoid any situation that will cause you discomfort which for me was many.
When it came to work I had to power through the fear so what did I do? Alcohol. Yep I drank while on the job to numb myself from my emotions. This went on for several years. Now mind you I'm doing this everyday I'm at work Mon-Fri and one day I said to myself your going to kill yourself drinking. I never drank because I liked drinking I drank because it was a surefire way to cope when everything else did not work immediately like I needed it to. Shannon's subs did help me tremendously but at the time I didn't know about the most powerful ones he has for things like this which is the Emotional Healing and Pain Relief. DMSI wasn't invented at the time.
Social anxiety which is almost gone, there is about 10-20% left to eliminate. I've been in leadership positions at work so on a regular basis I have had to speak to a room full of people which used to terrify me. If I knew I was going to have to give a presentation I would worry about it so much that it would ruin the days/weeks prior to having to give the big speech. I tried meditation and it does work but its a long term solution and won't give instant results other than some relaxation. I've tried many different relaxation techniques and they will work to some degree. Other techniques that can work require repetition, almost everything requires some kind of repetition because of the way our subconscious minds work and all the mental baggage that we've accumulated.
At the height of my social anxiety I would constantly feel afraid of social interaction, regular things like having a conversation would be tough for me even if the conversation was over the phone.
Other fears which are pretty much gone is that I would constantly think about dying, this resulted in having panic attacks on a regular basis.
Other fears include fear of driving over bridges, certain roads and highways, general feeling of uneasiness while alone.
Most of my fears are associated with the social anxiety or lack of self esteem and self confidence. My dad has Narcissistic Personality Disorder which is a nice way of saying he was a narcissist so countless years of being told your not good enough, or always finding your faults, always moving the goal post, constant criticism took its toll on me and created lots of insecurities. My dad would talk about me to other people telling including family members telling them I'm taking advantage of him, that I'm sick, that I'm not living up to expectations, etc.
These experiences also led to me always being very hard on myself. I never thought I was good enough whether it was with women or on the job, doing business, having relationships with friends, etc. It didn't ruin my life but it made things difficult. Having any type of fear is bad but social anxiety and general anxiety is like a prison because you alter your life to avoid any situation that will cause you discomfort which for me was many.
When it came to work I had to power through the fear so what did I do? Alcohol. Yep I drank while on the job to numb myself from my emotions. This went on for several years. Now mind you I'm doing this everyday I'm at work Mon-Fri and one day I said to myself your going to kill yourself drinking. I never drank because I liked drinking I drank because it was a surefire way to cope when everything else did not work immediately like I needed it to. Shannon's subs did help me tremendously but at the time I didn't know about the most powerful ones he has for things like this which is the Emotional Healing and Pain Relief. DMSI wasn't invented at the time.
