05-03-2021, 06:55 PM
(05-03-2021, 05:42 PM)Shannon Wrote: The thing you need to do is understand what you hate yourself for, and why.
The pain of self-hatred is really old. My earliest memories are of the overwhelming, full-body, excruciating pain of self-hatred. Over the years I’ve pushed it down enough so I can function, but it’s still underneath everything. It’s not a hatred about anything specific about myself. It’s a feeling that I shouldn’t exist, and that I’m worthless. It’s pre-verbal. It’s at my core and feels like it’s part of my identity.
I don’t know specifically if the pain is what prevents me from executing, or if it’s my subconscious that’s resistant and it pokes at the pain to inflame it to punish me for using the sub. But the pain is deeper than words and deeper than thoughts. It is an open wound in my soul that I’ve been trying to find a way to sew closed.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
