What path should I take | Choosing next sub(s)

[GreekGod22]

@Shannon  Thanks for writing.

I now feel able to better articulate my pain(s).  One is fear of not being enough for a woman, fear of being a lesser or inferior man. Combined with an irrational insecurity about my looks.
I've done a lot to improve in the looks department. I have a lot of interest from women on dating apps, but deep down inside, I still partly feel like a fraud, like I don't deserve them. I even subconsciously sabotage myself with them, I stop contacting them due to fear of being rejected by them at a future point in time.

My confidence and entitlement are better in the present moment, 2021 has been a good year for my dating life. It looks like I'm finally nearing my breakthrough. I am relatively stable emotionally.
Every time a woman sends me a message that it's a compliment or she flatters me, I screenshot it to always remember myself that I am worthy and wanted, that I have no reason to feel inferior.

I do realize that confidence also comes with experience, eventually I will successfully internalize the identity I desire of myself.

In my ASC journal that is currently active, I mention how I often have sex-dreams on ASC, so there must be some fears in subconscious that result in me fearing being sexual and dominant with women.

OFv2 should be a great choice for my next sub.