Cycle 11, Day 4
So, I am trying what Shannon suggested I am using two clicks lower every week I ‘am on cycle 10 was 26/30 I am using hybrid ocean track. I was able to sleep & had dreams. Now I am on 24/30, been having lots of dreams with women they are scary using running or moving a lot. Like a action movie. They are not very clear to me. I have been very exhausted usually sleep 13 hours a day.
I am realizing that when I got marriage & last relationship that I had was base in fear. This was all because I didn’t want to be alone. I just settled for people that were interest in me. I put up with their controlling & manipulative ways, so they would leave. When I had enough and stop putting up with it, they wanting to leave. I guess, I was to afraid to be my real self, thinking they wouldn’t like me. Now, I am realizing, it they don’t like me as I am there is no point of being with them. This is not a movie. This is the reality and all relationships require work on both people. But, the whole relationship should not be work. If, they love the real you, it will go a lot easier. Sick of playing mind games, hate the drama in relationship. At least that is how I feel.
I am looking for a job still. These employer are ridiculous, they play games to call and don’t leave message or if leave message don’t call back. That is rude, what happen to respect in this world. It is like this job market is a game. If, they are not interested they shouldn’t even call.
Thanks for listening; I hope all is going well with your journeys
So, I am trying what Shannon suggested I am using two clicks lower every week I ‘am on cycle 10 was 26/30 I am using hybrid ocean track. I was able to sleep & had dreams. Now I am on 24/30, been having lots of dreams with women they are scary using running or moving a lot. Like a action movie. They are not very clear to me. I have been very exhausted usually sleep 13 hours a day.
I am realizing that when I got marriage & last relationship that I had was base in fear. This was all because I didn’t want to be alone. I just settled for people that were interest in me. I put up with their controlling & manipulative ways, so they would leave. When I had enough and stop putting up with it, they wanting to leave. I guess, I was to afraid to be my real self, thinking they wouldn’t like me. Now, I am realizing, it they don’t like me as I am there is no point of being with them. This is not a movie. This is the reality and all relationships require work on both people. But, the whole relationship should not be work. If, they love the real you, it will go a lot easier. Sick of playing mind games, hate the drama in relationship. At least that is how I feel.
I am looking for a job still. These employer are ridiculous, they play games to call and don’t leave message or if leave message don’t call back. That is rude, what happen to respect in this world. It is like this job market is a game. If, they are not interested they shouldn’t even call.
Thanks for listening; I hope all is going well with your journeys
