Wednesday 20th Jan - Day 4 of cycle 3 - s10
Woke agitated wondering when will the sub work and when will I execute. Its now cycle 3 of the latest tech and so far nothing to report sadly.
Also remembered when ive been so afraid as a child and how in high school every day was an anxious day. All the bullying I face (mental) and the way I never was comfortable at school due to it.
I realised that this anxiety I faced every day caused me to shut down academically and then coming home to a stressful home wasnt any better.
So thinking about this and realising that I must be where I am due to all this isnt great and thus the sub not working was pissing me off.
Extra:
I cant recall when this was but it wasnt on this date maybe a week or so ago but I came down and heard a noise and fear hit me. There was nothing and no-one there and I composed myself ready to kick ass but the anxiety within was elevated instead of me feeling like a jedi knight.
Conclusion I dont see the sub working as yet
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Thursday 21st Jan - Day 5 of cycle 3 - s10
No agitated feeling today because I am playing the sub and just thinking fine carry on and hope that it does work for me.
My academic procrastinations and the fact im not reaching my goals is causing fear of the future in me.
I know its fear that stops me from focusing academically and fear is what is surrounding my academic experience and goals.
I need OF to start working man!
Woke agitated wondering when will the sub work and when will I execute. Its now cycle 3 of the latest tech and so far nothing to report sadly.
Also remembered when ive been so afraid as a child and how in high school every day was an anxious day. All the bullying I face (mental) and the way I never was comfortable at school due to it.
I realised that this anxiety I faced every day caused me to shut down academically and then coming home to a stressful home wasnt any better.
So thinking about this and realising that I must be where I am due to all this isnt great and thus the sub not working was pissing me off.
Extra:
I cant recall when this was but it wasnt on this date maybe a week or so ago but I came down and heard a noise and fear hit me. There was nothing and no-one there and I composed myself ready to kick ass but the anxiety within was elevated instead of me feeling like a jedi knight.
Conclusion I dont see the sub working as yet
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Thursday 21st Jan - Day 5 of cycle 3 - s10
No agitated feeling today because I am playing the sub and just thinking fine carry on and hope that it does work for me.
My academic procrastinations and the fact im not reaching my goals is causing fear of the future in me.
I know its fear that stops me from focusing academically and fear is what is surrounding my academic experience and goals.
I need OF to start working man!
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
