12-20-2020, 09:34 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-20-2020, 09:54 AM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Update, as of Dec 20, 2020 --
I have been busy with schooling this semester with a heavy work load. I am currently on my second to last day of carpetbombing for the week. I am considering giving it an early rest though, because I am feeling tired and drained even with good sleep.
I have made MAJOUR strides in getting over the friendship breakup: I have had to admit that while I did stuff wrong, so dis she, and I got A LOT of understanding about thw fundamental issues with her and what went on in the friendship. I have also been letting go of my need for some sort of "justice" or reconciliation or closure from the situation. I was trying to use Los the while time to get those things until recently. So long as she continues to scapegoat, self project and indulge in victim me tality etc. She will have the same issuea and aelf sabotaging patterns over and ovwr again. Best to disconnect from all that.
Still, I find myself in a new set if issues. No matter how much sleep I get, I am tired as f**k which means that my unconscious mibd ia resisting aone deep programming the program is doing. Maybe the FRM? I dunno.
I also came to find that every time I ejaculate, libido and a certain type of energy seems to be lost. I hear mixed reports from sources I feel authoritative as to whether or nit thia is irreversible. Even so, through a certain meditative technique, another kind of energy can be used in order to replace the energy lost. A type of energy that self regenerates
I am using it for that, to energize from all this tiredness I'm facing, and other issues.
I will not be continuing with college. I will be focused on online audio transcription and creative side hustles: rapping, vlogging, streaming, Let's Plays, etc. To earn coin. I want to be independent.
I am getting some basic stuff for Xmas to help vlog and stream with. Here's what I got or am getting:
High Def webcam, Blur Yeti mic, green screen background, Pop filter, high quality camera for pics, phone. I don't have much more than that yet. I have a giant collection if gamea I havent played and if I can get things set up for streaming, not only cam they become a financial asset, but playing them can become productive.
I have been busy with schooling this semester with a heavy work load. I am currently on my second to last day of carpetbombing for the week. I am considering giving it an early rest though, because I am feeling tired and drained even with good sleep.
I have made MAJOUR strides in getting over the friendship breakup: I have had to admit that while I did stuff wrong, so dis she, and I got A LOT of understanding about thw fundamental issues with her and what went on in the friendship. I have also been letting go of my need for some sort of "justice" or reconciliation or closure from the situation. I was trying to use Los the while time to get those things until recently. So long as she continues to scapegoat, self project and indulge in victim me tality etc. She will have the same issuea and aelf sabotaging patterns over and ovwr again. Best to disconnect from all that.
Still, I find myself in a new set if issues. No matter how much sleep I get, I am tired as f**k which means that my unconscious mibd ia resisting aone deep programming the program is doing. Maybe the FRM? I dunno.
I also came to find that every time I ejaculate, libido and a certain type of energy seems to be lost. I hear mixed reports from sources I feel authoritative as to whether or nit thia is irreversible. Even so, through a certain meditative technique, another kind of energy can be used in order to replace the energy lost. A type of energy that self regenerates
I am using it for that, to energize from all this tiredness I'm facing, and other issues.
I will not be continuing with college. I will be focused on online audio transcription and creative side hustles: rapping, vlogging, streaming, Let's Plays, etc. To earn coin. I want to be independent.
I am getting some basic stuff for Xmas to help vlog and stream with. Here's what I got or am getting:
High Def webcam, Blur Yeti mic, green screen background, Pop filter, high quality camera for pics, phone. I don't have much more than that yet. I have a giant collection if gamea I havent played and if I can get things set up for streaming, not only cam they become a financial asset, but playing them can become productive.
