12-10-2020, 09:45 AM
Short update:
Im noticing more polarizing effects going on. 2 nights out of 8 done. Depression, lowkey nihilism going on, an whats tge matter, which seems to passively influence my choices, outlook, behaviour, mindset and what not, having me in some sort of passiveness on the low. If all is just meaningless, then all is. Wth.
Also, emotions are all over the place today. Feeling blue, yet also in another way, im feeling great. Its a choice, which is funny as I actually feel amazing now. I mean, 2020 is crazy, but im still an amazing guy. 2020 is lit, so will 2021 be and so was last year.
Lol, so much rejection like bsgoing on today, im desensitized, im my own man. This girl started some shit as these facemasks are now something that *cough* have to worn *cough* in certain placesover here, and I wasnt impressed. She can be a 10/10, but idgaf. My interest peak lies somewhere else.
Anyway, im unfazed, feeling good, no matter the shit storm and all these attitudes that are thrown at me will make me more redpilled, disillusioned and skillfull. It all means little.
Im also done with the bs beliefs going on inside. Its one to confront tgem, its another to wallow in em and take em for granted. All with all im pretty much making progress.
Im noticing more polarizing effects going on. 2 nights out of 8 done. Depression, lowkey nihilism going on, an whats tge matter, which seems to passively influence my choices, outlook, behaviour, mindset and what not, having me in some sort of passiveness on the low. If all is just meaningless, then all is. Wth.
Also, emotions are all over the place today. Feeling blue, yet also in another way, im feeling great. Its a choice, which is funny as I actually feel amazing now. I mean, 2020 is crazy, but im still an amazing guy. 2020 is lit, so will 2021 be and so was last year.
Lol, so much rejection like bsgoing on today, im desensitized, im my own man. This girl started some shit as these facemasks are now something that *cough* have to worn *cough* in certain placesover here, and I wasnt impressed. She can be a 10/10, but idgaf. My interest peak lies somewhere else.
Anyway, im unfazed, feeling good, no matter the shit storm and all these attitudes that are thrown at me will make me more redpilled, disillusioned and skillfull. It all means little.
Im also done with the bs beliefs going on inside. Its one to confront tgem, its another to wallow in em and take em for granted. All with all im pretty much making progress.
