Reinstalled instagram 2 days ago with the intent of letting it work for me as an extention tool. I see lotsa ways and possibilities through intuitive setup aswell as play. Why not maximize right?
Anyway, I already have people come into my dm's like ive never been away. The currency keeps on 24/7, it never sleeps.
Now, this morning I woke up after having fear pop up yesterday, which, to me on a surface level doesnt make sense, as it is totally irrational. This morning I came to realize that I have an inferiority complex aswell as selfworth, selfbelief and what not that are playing a role in lack thereoff. I mean, I am conversating with an OG player and pimp, yet the energy through my screen is pretty much overwhelming.
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Im gonna rip off the bandaid and go deep. It terrified me on a level this morning to come to this awareness. Fear struck me. To be real and honest with myself is my virtue. To stop lying to myself, to stop being a lil bitch. To come to hard conclusions such as dealing with women, being scared for what? Sucking with women, like what? These are some things to come to conclusions with.
Its funny as this inferiority thing came up after the gym. It became clear to me as my sense of reading people is sharpened, that many guys seem to deal with the same. It might be projection due the issue at hand surfacing, but honestly, I feel I have strucken gold in this and am dealing with tons of shit.
Its also crazy how I had the strong idea yesterday around being gay. I mean, no I aint, and in perspective I was like "nope" its almost like a mismatch going on. I mean, I am expressive and what not, artistic in a way and I dig it, but im still a straight man. AM6 worked when I ran it + ive alwas been surtounded by women since elementary school. Ive made even damn poetry for some bitch when I was 15 and such, which is funny to think about. Ive been through it all, yet my mind is stubborn and blocks for some reason, like ive lost all my progress.
Look, I am straight, im all for authenticity and what not, im not opposed to the whole idea of people being gay and such, but this came way outta left field. Ive suspected it longer, but nope, I only bang women. Might be a pmo delusion thing going on due to pmo exposure over the years and thus destroying my soul, but yeah. I do have this judgment going on around my actions and what not, which might be a teardown as it comes scross as such, similar to depression ( ding ding ding! )
Another thing is, I matter, the rest is illusion beside what I want.
Anyway, I already have people come into my dm's like ive never been away. The currency keeps on 24/7, it never sleeps.
Now, this morning I woke up after having fear pop up yesterday, which, to me on a surface level doesnt make sense, as it is totally irrational. This morning I came to realize that I have an inferiority complex aswell as selfworth, selfbelief and what not that are playing a role in lack thereoff. I mean, I am conversating with an OG player and pimp, yet the energy through my screen is pretty much overwhelming.
.
Im gonna rip off the bandaid and go deep. It terrified me on a level this morning to come to this awareness. Fear struck me. To be real and honest with myself is my virtue. To stop lying to myself, to stop being a lil bitch. To come to hard conclusions such as dealing with women, being scared for what? Sucking with women, like what? These are some things to come to conclusions with.
Its funny as this inferiority thing came up after the gym. It became clear to me as my sense of reading people is sharpened, that many guys seem to deal with the same. It might be projection due the issue at hand surfacing, but honestly, I feel I have strucken gold in this and am dealing with tons of shit.
Its also crazy how I had the strong idea yesterday around being gay. I mean, no I aint, and in perspective I was like "nope" its almost like a mismatch going on. I mean, I am expressive and what not, artistic in a way and I dig it, but im still a straight man. AM6 worked when I ran it + ive alwas been surtounded by women since elementary school. Ive made even damn poetry for some bitch when I was 15 and such, which is funny to think about. Ive been through it all, yet my mind is stubborn and blocks for some reason, like ive lost all my progress.
Look, I am straight, im all for authenticity and what not, im not opposed to the whole idea of people being gay and such, but this came way outta left field. Ive suspected it longer, but nope, I only bang women. Might be a pmo delusion thing going on due to pmo exposure over the years and thus destroying my soul, but yeah. I do have this judgment going on around my actions and what not, which might be a teardown as it comes scross as such, similar to depression ( ding ding ding! )
Another thing is, I matter, the rest is illusion beside what I want.
