10-28-2020, 03:30 AM
Day 24
When I woke up a couple hours ago it hit me that I was roughly 10% a cycle of E4 and that I feel much farther than 10% toward the ultimate goal.
How I feel when things are "normal" is consistently becoming a better and better state. I don't feel great all the time, but when I don't feel great it's exciting, because I know bad stuff is getting taken care of permanently. I noticed another spike in my sex drive too.
I asked if BAMM is still available yesterday because for the first time since my age was in the single digits I feel like I can do it. Fuck it, I'm going to do it, that's it, period. I'm not all the way there yet, but I finally realize that no force in the universe can stop me. As I type this I just made a decision that today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am already rich; some of the money just hasn't arrived yet.
When I woke up a couple hours ago it hit me that I was roughly 10% a cycle of E4 and that I feel much farther than 10% toward the ultimate goal.
How I feel when things are "normal" is consistently becoming a better and better state. I don't feel great all the time, but when I don't feel great it's exciting, because I know bad stuff is getting taken care of permanently. I noticed another spike in my sex drive too.
I asked if BAMM is still available yesterday because for the first time since my age was in the single digits I feel like I can do it. Fuck it, I'm going to do it, that's it, period. I'm not all the way there yet, but I finally realize that no force in the universe can stop me. As I type this I just made a decision that today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am already rich; some of the money just hasn't arrived yet.
