10-23-2020, 03:09 PM
Benjamin's point is interesting. Out of curiosity, when you did Sedona with a sub, was it in an area generally being addressed by the sub? Sedona essentially blows out a subpersonality and allows it to work in a direction that is more beneficial. The result is somewhat like Stuart Lichtman's stuff, but without consciously engaging the subpersonality you give up the ability to give it a new task and tell it to keep certain things in exchange for simplicity and the possibility of correcting multiple subpersonalities simultaneously. If there was a substantial overlap in subpersonalities being modified by the sub and then Sedonaed there would be a certain logic to that.
Day 19
I'm steadily working my way back to where I was on the last post of page 1. This further confirms that off days just don't work for me at this point in time. Working 12+ hours without it feeling like worth hasn't come back yet, but I hit 11 yesterday and about 9 today. I had some computer hardware issues right as I was about to go to sleep last night and those 2.5 hours that should have been spent sleeping were not fun.
Yesterday I had the first conversation with my mother that didn't bombard me with unnecessary overt negativity. It probably happened when I was very young, but I don't really remember that, and I can say for certain it's a first over the last 28 years. It didn't last though, as she seemed to be subconsciously testing how far she could push me before I fought back. And she wonders why I consider women to be far more trouble than worth,
I went to a local pizza buffet joint for lunch today and intended to "work" the whole time by listening to lectures on success on my DAP. Yet people that have seen me 10+ times over the last 2 months felt the need to be very overly "nice" to me for some reason, which resulted in lots of talking and attempts at engaging in idle conversation. Their intentions were good, but it definitely was not the result I wanted. It reminded me how much I hated the minor E-level fame I've a few times in my life.
I've been considering joining a certain success club for awhile. A lot of things lined up to pull the trigger on it, including my subconscious telling me this is the time. Yesterday I took the plunge and joined. Some of the material was leaked publicly years ago, but now that I'm behind the paywall I see that it wasn't all of it. In going through material that was new to me I already came across one line that added very important depth to a basic concept. That little bit was definitely a component in some of my larger aspirations not coming to pass, so it's been a very good move worth far more than I invested thus far.
Day 19
I'm steadily working my way back to where I was on the last post of page 1. This further confirms that off days just don't work for me at this point in time. Working 12+ hours without it feeling like worth hasn't come back yet, but I hit 11 yesterday and about 9 today. I had some computer hardware issues right as I was about to go to sleep last night and those 2.5 hours that should have been spent sleeping were not fun.
Yesterday I had the first conversation with my mother that didn't bombard me with unnecessary overt negativity. It probably happened when I was very young, but I don't really remember that, and I can say for certain it's a first over the last 28 years. It didn't last though, as she seemed to be subconsciously testing how far she could push me before I fought back. And she wonders why I consider women to be far more trouble than worth,
I went to a local pizza buffet joint for lunch today and intended to "work" the whole time by listening to lectures on success on my DAP. Yet people that have seen me 10+ times over the last 2 months felt the need to be very overly "nice" to me for some reason, which resulted in lots of talking and attempts at engaging in idle conversation. Their intentions were good, but it definitely was not the result I wanted. It reminded me how much I hated the minor E-level fame I've a few times in my life.
I've been considering joining a certain success club for awhile. A lot of things lined up to pull the trigger on it, including my subconscious telling me this is the time. Yesterday I took the plunge and joined. Some of the material was leaked publicly years ago, but now that I'm behind the paywall I see that it wasn't all of it. In going through material that was new to me I already came across one line that added very important depth to a basic concept. That little bit was definitely a component in some of my larger aspirations not coming to pass, so it's been a very good move worth far more than I invested thus far.
