10-14-2020, 10:22 AM
More exposure is definitely a good thing. I feel better and when I feel something get worked over on the brink of consciousness I can tell that something is actually happening.
I had a strange dream last night, and I only bring it up because I typically remember 2 or 3 dreams in a year. Like most dreams I remember it was pretty nonsensical. I was in a large bathroom stall with a couple other guys discussing an issue with some guy (in a work setting?) because he was duplicitous about not liking us. For some reason a random slut I seemed to dislike on a personal level enters the stall wearing something skin tight with half her ass hanging out. She said something derogatory to me (don't remember what) and started grinding her on ass on my cock. I essentially shrugged and decided that if she wanted to dry hump me it wasn't worth the effort of stopping her. Then the disliked guy mentioned above bursts in and ended up being a very tall, bald 50-60something dude and I remember being surprised that this was the guy being discussed, although I should have logically known that already given the conversation. He went up to one guy and screwed "I haaaaaate you!!!!" in his face, then started doing it to me. At this point I had a muscle cramp/spasm/whatever you call your calf flexing so hard it feels like it's try to tear off the bone and that pain woke me up very quickly. That also happens 2 or 3 times a year, but not usually in the middle of a dream.
My subconscious also directed me to revisit the Sedona Method course I got a few years ago. At the time I found it a simplistic, repetitive 20+ hours of material and no more effective than other methods of getting rid of crap in your mind like tapping. Going through it again in a new unit of time I can see why I thought that, but am also finding value I didn't find a few years ago. If whatever is being worked on by the sub is exerting pressure on my brain I found that I can use Sedona to partially release the trauma. It never goes away completely, but is a step in the right direction and I feel it getting worked over when the sub is running. One other unexpected thing happened. Usually when I'd gone through the process and ask when I could/would release whatever the bad feeling is the answer would be that I could let it go now. With some of these feelings I got different answers including tomorrow and in about an hour. Maybe that's how long the sub needs to finish working out whatever that specific issue is?
tl;dr more is more for me at this point in time.
I had a strange dream last night, and I only bring it up because I typically remember 2 or 3 dreams in a year. Like most dreams I remember it was pretty nonsensical. I was in a large bathroom stall with a couple other guys discussing an issue with some guy (in a work setting?) because he was duplicitous about not liking us. For some reason a random slut I seemed to dislike on a personal level enters the stall wearing something skin tight with half her ass hanging out. She said something derogatory to me (don't remember what) and started grinding her on ass on my cock. I essentially shrugged and decided that if she wanted to dry hump me it wasn't worth the effort of stopping her. Then the disliked guy mentioned above bursts in and ended up being a very tall, bald 50-60something dude and I remember being surprised that this was the guy being discussed, although I should have logically known that already given the conversation. He went up to one guy and screwed "I haaaaaate you!!!!" in his face, then started doing it to me. At this point I had a muscle cramp/spasm/whatever you call your calf flexing so hard it feels like it's try to tear off the bone and that pain woke me up very quickly. That also happens 2 or 3 times a year, but not usually in the middle of a dream.
My subconscious also directed me to revisit the Sedona Method course I got a few years ago. At the time I found it a simplistic, repetitive 20+ hours of material and no more effective than other methods of getting rid of crap in your mind like tapping. Going through it again in a new unit of time I can see why I thought that, but am also finding value I didn't find a few years ago. If whatever is being worked on by the sub is exerting pressure on my brain I found that I can use Sedona to partially release the trauma. It never goes away completely, but is a step in the right direction and I feel it getting worked over when the sub is running. One other unexpected thing happened. Usually when I'd gone through the process and ask when I could/would release whatever the bad feeling is the answer would be that I could let it go now. With some of these feelings I got different answers including tomorrow and in about an hour. Maybe that's how long the sub needs to finish working out whatever that specific issue is?
tl;dr more is more for me at this point in time.
