10-03-2020, 08:40 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-03-2020, 08:45 AM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Day 3 of carpetbombing.
I have manifested some interesting opportunities:
1) I may have mentioned already, but I am doing online audio transcription, though I'm not making a lot yet off of it.
2) Vocational Rehabilitation services are pleased with my progress and offering to pay for my education.
3) I have been offered $50 dollars to walk the dog of a neighbour every day past 6:00PM for a week. It is easy: just put the dog in a wagon, roll her to the cul de sac at the end of my tiny neighbourhoods street and let her do her business at fhe cul de sac where dogs tend to to do their thang. Put her back in the wagon. Take her home. Let her out of the wagon and let her back into the house. Should take like 10 to 15 minutes. Easy peasy. Every day for one week. For 50 bucks. That's pretty good!
4) Shortly after, a couple neighbours came by and asked if starting on the same day as my dog walking, I could stop by their house once a morning for like a week and feed their cat once a day. Just go to their house and leave some food out for the cat in the dish at their front door. Once a day for like a week. 50 bucks. Easy peasy.
Each time I make money, I treat it like an energetic current; an emissary for more money into my life. I thank it and welcome more into my life with gratitude.
I also have my parents buying various birthday gifts even though they agreed to just give me 150 dollars for my birthday. I turned 31, 3 days ago (Sep 30th)
On the emotional front, I am clearing some issues with my exfriend. I have been getting guidance on the matter and as I heal it, I am also turning the situation around and readying myself for her return so we can work this shit out, but I have to be decided fully on what I want and then act in accordance.
I have had a recent mentor in my life enter into it and he made very clear that I am 100% responsible for everything I have experienced and that I have the power to change my experience and manifest whatever I want. He also told me that this relationship with this friend of mine is bigger than both of us and that there is no running away from it. I have been getting perspective as to how my friend feels and why and having to take responsibility for changing whatever about myself aligns with those perspectives. Energetically, I am leading the relationship.
I am full of overabundance "yin" energy as one might put it. As in feminine passive energy. I am being challenged to balance it with masculine, active "yang" energy. The inverse for my ex friend. She gains in yin energy as I gain in yang. She changes as I change. She unwittingly follows my lead. She mirrors me back to me and vice versa.
We are both also working through C-PTSD and abandonment trauma. Also through patterns of scapegoating, codependency, abandonment, etc.
Since I am leading the charge in this, she only changes when I do, know it or not. There is more to this, but I've said enough.
The best way to change my situation is to take full responsibility and forgive, both myself and her. It is still important that I properly set standards and healthy boundaries, while manifesting a better scenario where the situation changes to my liking and my grievances are resolved to my liking. First, I must resolve what about me causes her grievances. Then the rest follows. The first thing that needs resolution is internal conflict. The rest follows. This ties into abundance inherently...
I have manifested some interesting opportunities:
1) I may have mentioned already, but I am doing online audio transcription, though I'm not making a lot yet off of it.
2) Vocational Rehabilitation services are pleased with my progress and offering to pay for my education.
3) I have been offered $50 dollars to walk the dog of a neighbour every day past 6:00PM for a week. It is easy: just put the dog in a wagon, roll her to the cul de sac at the end of my tiny neighbourhoods street and let her do her business at fhe cul de sac where dogs tend to to do their thang. Put her back in the wagon. Take her home. Let her out of the wagon and let her back into the house. Should take like 10 to 15 minutes. Easy peasy. Every day for one week. For 50 bucks. That's pretty good!
4) Shortly after, a couple neighbours came by and asked if starting on the same day as my dog walking, I could stop by their house once a morning for like a week and feed their cat once a day. Just go to their house and leave some food out for the cat in the dish at their front door. Once a day for like a week. 50 bucks. Easy peasy.
Each time I make money, I treat it like an energetic current; an emissary for more money into my life. I thank it and welcome more into my life with gratitude.
I also have my parents buying various birthday gifts even though they agreed to just give me 150 dollars for my birthday. I turned 31, 3 days ago (Sep 30th)
On the emotional front, I am clearing some issues with my exfriend. I have been getting guidance on the matter and as I heal it, I am also turning the situation around and readying myself for her return so we can work this shit out, but I have to be decided fully on what I want and then act in accordance.
I have had a recent mentor in my life enter into it and he made very clear that I am 100% responsible for everything I have experienced and that I have the power to change my experience and manifest whatever I want. He also told me that this relationship with this friend of mine is bigger than both of us and that there is no running away from it. I have been getting perspective as to how my friend feels and why and having to take responsibility for changing whatever about myself aligns with those perspectives. Energetically, I am leading the relationship.
I am full of overabundance "yin" energy as one might put it. As in feminine passive energy. I am being challenged to balance it with masculine, active "yang" energy. The inverse for my ex friend. She gains in yin energy as I gain in yang. She changes as I change. She unwittingly follows my lead. She mirrors me back to me and vice versa.
We are both also working through C-PTSD and abandonment trauma. Also through patterns of scapegoating, codependency, abandonment, etc.
Since I am leading the charge in this, she only changes when I do, know it or not. There is more to this, but I've said enough.
The best way to change my situation is to take full responsibility and forgive, both myself and her. It is still important that I properly set standards and healthy boundaries, while manifesting a better scenario where the situation changes to my liking and my grievances are resolved to my liking. First, I must resolve what about me causes her grievances. Then the rest follows. The first thing that needs resolution is internal conflict. The rest follows. This ties into abundance inherently...
