DMSI 3.3.2 - of becoming and being a G

[Kol]

I feel really good now..masculine, solid. Meditated to release the headache for a bit, nothing fancy. But damn, I saw all fall away as I stayed in Mushin. Initially, when I entered meditation, I sensed/saw energy flashes bursting off from me, like a car being loaded with NOS ( probably? When fire comes out of the exhaust?) After all this work, the only way is forward. Im proud of myself. Hopefull. Fuck all the negative bs. Im a new man. Solid, masculine. At peace even and radiant. It all pays off.