09-09-2020, 12:56 AM
After I wrote that last night, I first thought someone was angry at me for being honest (I realized part of me was angry that I'd shared it). I also detested admitting my using it to manipulate others when younger--when I've done that in recent years.
It was uncomfortable being REAL, being human. At this moment, fear still exists where anger pops up, seeking to "protect" me. I listened to loops last night, even adding 2 more loops to my set since fear rose quickly. I didn't want it finding a foothold again. I'm a little tired this morning. But, I don't regret it. This is working.
Moving forward
It was uncomfortable being REAL, being human. At this moment, fear still exists where anger pops up, seeking to "protect" me. I listened to loops last night, even adding 2 more loops to my set since fear rose quickly. I didn't want it finding a foothold again. I'm a little tired this morning. But, I don't regret it. This is working.
Moving forward
I want to be FREE!
