Alright, went to get some food. Cute girl at the checkout, was in the zone so to say. -> boom, felt the bubble. Present. Eye contact was on, positive. Then, what I notice was again this "arching back" position, tits in the air thing, vulnerable show off.
It now clicks on some level it is an subconscious sex position re-enactment. Mindblowing. This is way to consistent. A pattern to be random. Still im focussed on my shit, discipline, streak. Im letting go of it all.
I didnt close because I was present and simply didnt give a fuck. Im now musing if fear might been present. Idk now, seems so on some level.
I feel way more liberated, primal, a game.
There is next level just waiting around the corner as of now. Oh btw, selflove is a massive lifehack and benefit. For me, giving myself some slack and allowing some chilltime/downtime is something I deprived myself from lately. Going extreme in discipline. Thank you DMSI for showing me the light. Im blissing out again.
Edit: reading Shannons update, im filled with joy and happiness. This what I mentioned in my update went effortless. Im really joyfull and am looking forward to what is to come. Omg.
It now clicks on some level it is an subconscious sex position re-enactment. Mindblowing. This is way to consistent. A pattern to be random. Still im focussed on my shit, discipline, streak. Im letting go of it all.
I didnt close because I was present and simply didnt give a fuck. Im now musing if fear might been present. Idk now, seems so on some level.
I feel way more liberated, primal, a game.
There is next level just waiting around the corner as of now. Oh btw, selflove is a massive lifehack and benefit. For me, giving myself some slack and allowing some chilltime/downtime is something I deprived myself from lately. Going extreme in discipline. Thank you DMSI for showing me the light. Im blissing out again.
Edit: reading Shannons update, im filled with joy and happiness. This what I mentioned in my update went effortless. Im really joyfull and am looking forward to what is to come. Omg.
