09-07-2020, 03:18 AM
Stage 1 is still digging.
After listening to loops on my first day of rest, I took off yesterday, but I felt a slight bit overloaded from loops from this last session. I wasn't sure I'd feel it executing.
But I slept good, feeling it working. I awoke this morning, feeling like LTU made a stand within me, and it's not going back. It's facing my hold onto my past and history, and it didn't go there to retreat. My past is why I'm here, as I've hid there day after day, year after year. I don't feel excited about changing. Heck, I've had some denial or excuse about falling back on into it tucked away at all times.
The detox module must be responsible for this. Like it's gone from sweeping my mess with a broom to using a shovel to start digging bigger pieces out. I'll start my 5th session today, and I'm glad St2 will continue working on this.
Right now it seems like fear is looking for footing. I'm gonna do my weekly routine of laundry and shopping today, and fear was looking for a reason I should retreat. Fear is why I've held back before--but I don't want to give it more power and attention. I'll just go.
Also, something minor that I've just not reported on. The detox module has been pushing stuff out of my body, and what I've noticed are pimples. I had a pimple on the backside of my ear last week, a real rarity. I have 2 on my face healing now, which came days apart. Nothing significant there, just more evidence it's working.
After listening to loops on my first day of rest, I took off yesterday, but I felt a slight bit overloaded from loops from this last session. I wasn't sure I'd feel it executing.
But I slept good, feeling it working. I awoke this morning, feeling like LTU made a stand within me, and it's not going back. It's facing my hold onto my past and history, and it didn't go there to retreat. My past is why I'm here, as I've hid there day after day, year after year. I don't feel excited about changing. Heck, I've had some denial or excuse about falling back on into it tucked away at all times.
The detox module must be responsible for this. Like it's gone from sweeping my mess with a broom to using a shovel to start digging bigger pieces out. I'll start my 5th session today, and I'm glad St2 will continue working on this.
Right now it seems like fear is looking for footing. I'm gonna do my weekly routine of laundry and shopping today, and fear was looking for a reason I should retreat. Fear is why I've held back before--but I don't want to give it more power and attention. I'll just go.
Also, something minor that I've just not reported on. The detox module has been pushing stuff out of my body, and what I've noticed are pimples. I had a pimple on the backside of my ear last week, a real rarity. I have 2 on my face healing now, which came days apart. Nothing significant there, just more evidence it's working.
I want to be FREE!
