08-31-2020, 02:46 PM
I'd read last week how Shannon encouraged a LTU6 user to trust his desire if he felt he needed more loops, so I'm eliminating my 2nd day off and am listening to a set of loops now. I got this sense today that fear was trying to ramp up to hold its ground, and last night had some connection here.
I'd been in bed by 7 last night, but I couldn't sleep. It was 9:30 when I ran a single loop, but had unfamiliar desires to run a full 7 loops. I'd slept well yesterday during the day, dreaming and writing about it, and when it was bedtime, part of me was uncomfortable with it. Tbh, I don't understand it, but part of me was really scared about something which I've not identified. I ran the single loop to handle the fear, and I slept well with it.
My only understanding is that part of me was afraid of dreaming. I was free to explore and grow in yesterday's dream, it felt incredible--and something in me has been dampening my dream awareness for eons. This part felt scared it'd lose its value, and I can safely say it felt like it'd die if I did more dreaming.
I'd been in bed by 7 last night, but I couldn't sleep. It was 9:30 when I ran a single loop, but had unfamiliar desires to run a full 7 loops. I'd slept well yesterday during the day, dreaming and writing about it, and when it was bedtime, part of me was uncomfortable with it. Tbh, I don't understand it, but part of me was really scared about something which I've not identified. I ran the single loop to handle the fear, and I slept well with it.
My only understanding is that part of me was afraid of dreaming. I was free to explore and grow in yesterday's dream, it felt incredible--and something in me has been dampening my dream awareness for eons. This part felt scared it'd lose its value, and I can safely say it felt like it'd die if I did more dreaming.
I want to be FREE!
