I had a dream while napping. I don't usually remember dreams so I'll put this down.
I was in an old neighborhood where my mom used to live. Feelings of shame and fear accompany this location. My mindset was focused on moving ahead into life, and I jumped on my scooter (which I own currently). I was zooming down the road, and my engine went dead. I'd run out of gas. But I knew a gas station was one or two blocks ahead, so I got on my feet and began pushing my scooter that direction.
I hadn't moved even a block, and 2 full-size semi trailers surrounded me (one on each side), though it was barely enough room for all 3 vehicles simultaneously. Them moving on such a narrow street had them come to a halt until someone moved out of the way.
But that was their business, their own created problem. I resumed pushing my scooter onward, then I woke up.
These thoughts come up now: shame and fear have been major hindrances in my life, and in times past, I would have been stuck on the problem at hand, me feeling intimidated by the problems (the BIG trailers). I would have stayed there, trying to "think" myself out of these feelings. But in this dream, I was determined not to stay there, despite the effort to hold me up once again. The trailers represented shame and fear trying to keep me from moving. And the solution was quite simple. I didn't come there to stop, so I resumed my journey on my own 2 feet. That was my goal. In the dream, I didn't even have to think about it. I just did what I needed to do to move towards it.
I was in an old neighborhood where my mom used to live. Feelings of shame and fear accompany this location. My mindset was focused on moving ahead into life, and I jumped on my scooter (which I own currently). I was zooming down the road, and my engine went dead. I'd run out of gas. But I knew a gas station was one or two blocks ahead, so I got on my feet and began pushing my scooter that direction.
I hadn't moved even a block, and 2 full-size semi trailers surrounded me (one on each side), though it was barely enough room for all 3 vehicles simultaneously. Them moving on such a narrow street had them come to a halt until someone moved out of the way.
But that was their business, their own created problem. I resumed pushing my scooter onward, then I woke up.
These thoughts come up now: shame and fear have been major hindrances in my life, and in times past, I would have been stuck on the problem at hand, me feeling intimidated by the problems (the BIG trailers). I would have stayed there, trying to "think" myself out of these feelings. But in this dream, I was determined not to stay there, despite the effort to hold me up once again. The trailers represented shame and fear trying to keep me from moving. And the solution was quite simple. I didn't come there to stop, so I resumed my journey on my own 2 feet. That was my goal. In the dream, I didn't even have to think about it. I just did what I needed to do to move towards it.
I want to be FREE!
