08-26-2020, 11:45 PM
26-27 augustus 1 cycle
Ran my first set of loops last night. Having strong brainfog. Atleast im kicking some mayor dopamine triggers. Never going back. This will pass and im feeling pretty good about it.
I think it is resistance, my subconscious throwing up the brainfog to discourage, derail or some stuff along these lines. Im clear about not going back to the instant gratification, short term pleasures and what not.
Attraction is wild nowadays. Full on boob displays, deep gaxing from women, the dmsi bubble in 1 on 1, girls showing overt IOIs with clear IOS patterns layered with it. Its hella clear. Not going to entertain this out of not wanting to trigger relapse, but its amazing.
Im feeling like having a huge hangover. Im also back in eastern philosophy and it is really good.
Financial stuff till this day keeps improving, FRM does some great work in this area. Its driven by fun, for the sake of it, for shits and giggles. Awesome. As im writing this, I keep uncovering, dismanteling, untangling.
Also, im clicking soooo smoothly in socisa interaction. It takes no effort. I walk up, I vibe. Its beyond words or anything. Im the prize. Its being felt by people.
Also, whats fun, is, relationstatus means shit. Girls looking away it means nothing. Its energetic and an sense of "gotcha" couple walks the street, yet she gets snipered. Its like a cheatcode. A hack. She can look awsy but I can feel the magnetic pull ooze still. Her body doesnt lie.
Anyway, im at the point IDGAF. women are distraction. Im about my own shit. Taking full care and ownership. Idk if this goes against DMSI, but still.
I am enough.
Ran my first set of loops last night. Having strong brainfog. Atleast im kicking some mayor dopamine triggers. Never going back. This will pass and im feeling pretty good about it.
I think it is resistance, my subconscious throwing up the brainfog to discourage, derail or some stuff along these lines. Im clear about not going back to the instant gratification, short term pleasures and what not.
Attraction is wild nowadays. Full on boob displays, deep gaxing from women, the dmsi bubble in 1 on 1, girls showing overt IOIs with clear IOS patterns layered with it. Its hella clear. Not going to entertain this out of not wanting to trigger relapse, but its amazing.
Im feeling like having a huge hangover. Im also back in eastern philosophy and it is really good.
Financial stuff till this day keeps improving, FRM does some great work in this area. Its driven by fun, for the sake of it, for shits and giggles. Awesome. As im writing this, I keep uncovering, dismanteling, untangling.
Also, im clicking soooo smoothly in socisa interaction. It takes no effort. I walk up, I vibe. Its beyond words or anything. Im the prize. Its being felt by people.
Also, whats fun, is, relationstatus means shit. Girls looking away it means nothing. Its energetic and an sense of "gotcha" couple walks the street, yet she gets snipered. Its like a cheatcode. A hack. She can look awsy but I can feel the magnetic pull ooze still. Her body doesnt lie.
Anyway, im at the point IDGAF. women are distraction. Im about my own shit. Taking full care and ownership. Idk if this goes against DMSI, but still.
I am enough.
