UMS Journal

[Shannon]

Ok, will move to 3 days on and 2 off for the moment.
On the 2 days off I feel ok, stress is at an acceptable level.  Still have quite a bit of tinnitus, even with the Masked.
Other than that one incident I mentioned, my financials are much the same as they were, very tough.
Just surviving with government assistance.
Nothing much more to report.

By looking at your history, I would say that some part of you is doing everything in its power to stay in that state and prevent or resist the subliminal.  I would say you're potentially exhibiting Type 3, 10 and 20 resistance.  Given that, just finding something that produces even tiredness is progress.  So now you'll need to use it enough to start getting past the resistance.  And with that, the tiredness.

When your subconscious resists that hard, it's because something you believe at a deep level is taken to mean that being successful financially will somehow kill you.  So what beliefs do you have that would result in that sort of conclusion by your subconscious?  What threats are you associating with being able to be financially successful?