whome's OF 5.75G journal

[Shannon]

Day 24

Stopped listening overnight, started listening during the daytime.

A question (kinda for Shannon): What kind of power does the subconscious have? Specifically, a lymph node on the right side of my neck has been inflamed and hurting for a week now and it isn’t stopping. Is that the kind of thing that the subconscious can do? I went to the doctor and they have no idea why. But I realized this morning that there’s a slight pain in my jaw near a tooth that I had a crown put on a year ago. I’m not sure if the pain in my jaw is caused by the inflamed lymph node, or if the lymph node is caused by the pain in the jaw and some tooth thing.

I am going to ask around about the possibilities of those things, but can the subconscious push back against me listening to subs by doing serious damage to my body? A lot of bad things have been happening to me since starting to listen to it, but I don’t know if I should be attributing that to the sub, or if it’s not something the sub can do and it’s pure coincidence.

The subconscious is the control panel for the body.  It regulates all the body's autonomic functions that keep you going which you don't consciously control.  Now as to a specific lymph node, I don't know if it would get that specific.  I also doubt that the pain in your jaw has anything to do with an inflamed lymph node.  There are much easier ways that the subconscious would be trying to get you to stop, like the ever popular headaches.  I am not convinced that what you describe here means that anything is being done by your subconscious to try to pull "scorched earth" tactics.  

However, if you conclude that it is more than likely, then the path to take would be to reduce the volume.  The volume is equated to urgency, and if you push too hard one of two things will typically happen:

A) The subconscious will resist if it can, shutting down execution.
B) The subconscious will try various sneaky tactics to get you to stop running the program if it cannot resist.  

Option B is where we are having the "scorched Earth tactics" come in.  The subconscious is trying desperately to get you to stop what you're doing.  The best way forward without giving up is to lower the volume until your subconscious stops pulling these kinds of tactics, but you are still able to make progress.  Basically, you're trying to balance the speed of progress with what your subconscious can handle.  Go a cycle or two at that volume, and then slowly try to increase it again as you make progress.

I don't think from what you've said here that that is what is happening; I think what you're probably dealing with is just a fear of "what if", not actual scorched earth tactics.  Usually those will be simple and obvious.  Headaches are popular for that reason.  But as I said, if you, knowing more of what's going on than I do, decide you think it's more than likely to be caused by scorched earth tactics, then that is how you would best deal with it.