07-19-2020, 09:56 AM
Cycle 3 - Days 1 and 2
Felt a lot better towards the end of my off days, with the exception that the last night of my off days and the first night of the third cycle my sleep was the worst it's been in almost a year. I slept for maybe 6 hours total combined those two nights, which is probably why I was exhausted all day yesterday after the first night of the cycle. Last night was much better, and even remembered a tiny bit of a dream that I had.
I'm a pretty introverted person, but during my dream I was more outgoing than I can remember being in a long time. Usually I wait til I get to know people before I open up, but during my dream I was at a party and was lively and talking to everyone.
During the day today I've noticed that I have this general sense of enjoyment in whatever I'm doing, and an overall enjoyment of life again. Even being furloughed for months and being at home all the time I still have this sense of happiness inside. The voice inside and inner talk have started to decrease lately as well.
Another thing that happened is people have been blocking off my garage at my apartment complex the last week or so. Usually I would just let it go and not say anything, but anger took over one night late last week and I had to resolve it or it would just continue and I would put it off. Speaking up and saying something I'm attributing to OF since I didn't even hesitate to voice my displeasure with my neighbors.
Felt a lot better towards the end of my off days, with the exception that the last night of my off days and the first night of the third cycle my sleep was the worst it's been in almost a year. I slept for maybe 6 hours total combined those two nights, which is probably why I was exhausted all day yesterday after the first night of the cycle. Last night was much better, and even remembered a tiny bit of a dream that I had.
I'm a pretty introverted person, but during my dream I was more outgoing than I can remember being in a long time. Usually I wait til I get to know people before I open up, but during my dream I was at a party and was lively and talking to everyone.
During the day today I've noticed that I have this general sense of enjoyment in whatever I'm doing, and an overall enjoyment of life again. Even being furloughed for months and being at home all the time I still have this sense of happiness inside. The voice inside and inner talk have started to decrease lately as well.
Another thing that happened is people have been blocking off my garage at my apartment complex the last week or so. Usually I would just let it go and not say anything, but anger took over one night late last week and I had to resolve it or it would just continue and I would put it off. Speaking up and saying something I'm attributing to OF since I didn't even hesitate to voice my displeasure with my neighbors.
