07-15-2020, 06:37 AM
I decide to just relax and let DMSI come to me as it comes. I drop all chains and resistance and realize it is exactly that.
Aura fires up directly, heat is noticable felt.
Also, it mindblowing what crazy shit I experienced, which I totally forgot about, in the form of memories and past experiences. I mean, women blowing up my phone, playing the "show up after work" etc etc. I totally forgot about that.
Its some sort of paradox. Instead of pushing, relaxing.
Other subtle fears are also noticed, but like I said, lets give DMSI full reign and get out if my damn head.
Exciting. I feel I wasted years tho which I regret.
Aura fires up directly, heat is noticable felt.
Also, it mindblowing what crazy shit I experienced, which I totally forgot about, in the form of memories and past experiences. I mean, women blowing up my phone, playing the "show up after work" etc etc. I totally forgot about that.
Its some sort of paradox. Instead of pushing, relaxing.
Other subtle fears are also noticed, but like I said, lets give DMSI full reign and get out if my damn head.
Exciting. I feel I wasted years tho which I regret.
