07-15-2020, 03:15 AM
Day 45 (7)
My adventures with clovers are getting more and more ridiculous. I won't bother describing them here as I think it would be boring to simply point them out. Needless to say I'm trying to understand what's going on and I'm coming to some interesting conclusions, including how LTU might be helping me in me finding these clovers.
I wish I could talk more about Will and "lust of result" etc. and how that might be helping me getting to my goals further down my life journey but I don't feel comfortable talking about this level of occultism and hermetic teachings here. Rule 4 should be obeyed and I was discussing these ideas already with my observations of my weight loss efforts - how I started to see results when I wanted to lose weight not for looks or health but out of simple love and acceptance of myself.
BTW what's scary is that yesterday and today, as I was meditating, it became obvious to me that this year is the last year of this early stage of my self-improvement journey. At this pace in the next year I will no longer have an excuse of "preparing for the challenges ahead" and I'll have to face these challenges instead. That's one scary thought, but it looks like I'll be armed with LTU6 by that time so things should go well. Still, I have fewer and fewer excuses and there is a lot of work to be finally done instead of whining. I feel like truly weird stuff will start happening in my life in 2021.
My adventures with clovers are getting more and more ridiculous. I won't bother describing them here as I think it would be boring to simply point them out. Needless to say I'm trying to understand what's going on and I'm coming to some interesting conclusions, including how LTU might be helping me in me finding these clovers.
I wish I could talk more about Will and "lust of result" etc. and how that might be helping me getting to my goals further down my life journey but I don't feel comfortable talking about this level of occultism and hermetic teachings here. Rule 4 should be obeyed and I was discussing these ideas already with my observations of my weight loss efforts - how I started to see results when I wanted to lose weight not for looks or health but out of simple love and acceptance of myself.
BTW what's scary is that yesterday and today, as I was meditating, it became obvious to me that this year is the last year of this early stage of my self-improvement journey. At this pace in the next year I will no longer have an excuse of "preparing for the challenges ahead" and I'll have to face these challenges instead. That's one scary thought, but it looks like I'll be armed with LTU6 by that time so things should go well. Still, I have fewer and fewer excuses and there is a lot of work to be finally done instead of whining. I feel like truly weird stuff will start happening in my life in 2021.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
