07-14-2020, 03:33 AM
Day 44 (6)
My mom's at the hospital, the surgery probably tomorrow. I'm not scared but I'm certainly worried. At any rate I can't do much now so there is no point lingering over it except by giving my mom some support via the phone.
I'm alone in the house now, so I'm back to my normal mode of living. However, as I'm out of sync as I'm not in my regular flat, I hope to use the next couple of days to get some self-discovery work done. It's easier to work on oneself when your outside of your everyday comfort zone.
I've looked at my NoFap stats and I came up with a new goal for myself. This year I need to either get the 30 day streak or get all past year records beaten. In my app I'm using to follow my progress there are 10 best streaks visible - 5 of them are from 2020 and 5 from 2019. I want all the 10 best streaks to be from 2020, which will mean having 8 at least 11 day streaks. Either goal is fine as they both work to break my habits. I'm at the day 6 now, in the past that would be close to impossible to me, now it's pretty easy. Progress sometimes comes organically, not in leaps.
My mom's at the hospital, the surgery probably tomorrow. I'm not scared but I'm certainly worried. At any rate I can't do much now so there is no point lingering over it except by giving my mom some support via the phone.
I'm alone in the house now, so I'm back to my normal mode of living. However, as I'm out of sync as I'm not in my regular flat, I hope to use the next couple of days to get some self-discovery work done. It's easier to work on oneself when your outside of your everyday comfort zone.
I've looked at my NoFap stats and I came up with a new goal for myself. This year I need to either get the 30 day streak or get all past year records beaten. In my app I'm using to follow my progress there are 10 best streaks visible - 5 of them are from 2020 and 5 from 2019. I want all the 10 best streaks to be from 2020, which will mean having 8 at least 11 day streaks. Either goal is fine as they both work to break my habits. I'm at the day 6 now, in the past that would be close to impossible to me, now it's pretty easy. Progress sometimes comes organically, not in leaps.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
