07-06-2020, 03:56 AM
With all the stuff going on and my impatience, I went with 7 loops. Same stuff as with ums, terror, hopeless, suicidal-ish stuff. Truly ripping till rock bottom.
Dont do that again lol. Still somewhat positive in a sense like being carried on hands or something.
Needless to say, agitation, agression, out of control sense, but indirected doom and gloom. I have a sense some very deep stuff is being handled. Yesterday I was pushed towards surrender.
Still having ums stuff going on. Terror surrounds itself around finances, incapability, self attack and what not. In the field of ums, im having a growing prosperity mindset. Seeing yachts, cars and all as "nice toys" and getting an euphoric sense of that that is what it should be.
4 loops, 8 days. Then 4 days off. Ima stick to that.
Dont do that again lol. Still somewhat positive in a sense like being carried on hands or something.
Needless to say, agitation, agression, out of control sense, but indirected doom and gloom. I have a sense some very deep stuff is being handled. Yesterday I was pushed towards surrender.
Still having ums stuff going on. Terror surrounds itself around finances, incapability, self attack and what not. In the field of ums, im having a growing prosperity mindset. Seeing yachts, cars and all as "nice toys" and getting an euphoric sense of that that is what it should be.
4 loops, 8 days. Then 4 days off. Ima stick to that.
