07-04-2020, 08:32 AM
Day 34 (6)
It's fun to watch destiny unfold before your eyes. I've grown old and wise enough to see and recognize these moments. Those are not moments of unavoidable events like ancient prophecies, more like a choice, crossroads were you are given the option to go left or straight ahead. The former is going further with your like, the latter is changing it as you'd wish it had happened. In the past I'd pick one of there almost unconsciously, without regard of the consequences. Now I can ponder on them.
And be careful what you wish, you may regret it. Be careful what you wish, you just might get! (Ohhh, King Nothing!)
I've met this very nice girl on tinder recently. Nice and fun and intelligent. Very compatible in terms of character and sense of humor. Old me would go after her and not look back. Current me had doubts. I enjoy solitude and I'm not sure if I'm ready to shed it for companionship. A relationship for me is indistinguishable from the cage right now. And getting into one sounds stupid. On the other hand she's really great and I might not get another chance like that anytime soon.
What I will do is I'm gonna be honest with her. If she's willing to give me some patience and acknowledge that she might be asking from me more than I can give, then eventually I'll open up for her. If not, she'd probably never been the one from the start. We'll see how it goes.
It's fun to watch destiny unfold before your eyes. I've grown old and wise enough to see and recognize these moments. Those are not moments of unavoidable events like ancient prophecies, more like a choice, crossroads were you are given the option to go left or straight ahead. The former is going further with your like, the latter is changing it as you'd wish it had happened. In the past I'd pick one of there almost unconsciously, without regard of the consequences. Now I can ponder on them.
And be careful what you wish, you may regret it. Be careful what you wish, you just might get! (Ohhh, King Nothing!)
I've met this very nice girl on tinder recently. Nice and fun and intelligent. Very compatible in terms of character and sense of humor. Old me would go after her and not look back. Current me had doubts. I enjoy solitude and I'm not sure if I'm ready to shed it for companionship. A relationship for me is indistinguishable from the cage right now. And getting into one sounds stupid. On the other hand she's really great and I might not get another chance like that anytime soon.
What I will do is I'm gonna be honest with her. If she's willing to give me some patience and acknowledge that she might be asking from me more than I can give, then eventually I'll open up for her. If not, she'd probably never been the one from the start. We'll see how it goes.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
