K-Train's OF 5.75G Journal: The Other Side of Fear is Freedom

[ncbeareatingman]

You are right about the fears concerning women. I'm a fan of ARC. I'm even a patron of him on patreon. The fears he talks about stopping men from being truly mode 1, I do have them at some level.

If OF can help me to eliminate those fears, this is going to be a life changing experience...

A fellow ARC fan! What's good bro! Yeah bro, I honestly feel that if OF clears those fears I feel like 80-95% of the issues guys have with executing DMSI will fall by the wayside. Here's hoping it does. 


Week 2, Day 2 OF 5.75G

Subconscious Resistance

This day has been all about resistance. I've felt moody and somewhat irritable and this is even with my improved health and with a good night's sleep. One of the best nights of sleeps I've had in a while and I've felt angry and irritable all day. I've tried to keep it in check and prevent myself from snapping on people but its been a challenge. 
I've also been procrastinating off and on all day however I can tell my subconscious isn't able to completely win because I've managed to get off my ass in spurts and get things done. I also notice that when I actually start doing the task (such as writing this post) there's very little if any fear.

Fears Confronted or Conquered

• Frog Phobia - I F*CKING HATE FROGS!!! It's a childhood phobia and I can't stand looking at them and seeing them in real life. Most of my life I've had a colossal fear of them. In the summertime I sometimes have frogs on my steps and when growing up my parents (or me when I got older) would have to sweep them off. The other night when I got home I saw a frog on my doorstep. I walked up to it and kicked it off the steps. Was there some fear? A little, especially when the damn thing didn't leave after the first kick but the fact that I even attempted this was incredible because that immense fear that would normally be present was severely reduced.
  

•  Bugs - yep. Not much of a fan of bugs either. I had a GIGANTIC grasshopper get into the house. I saw it and calmly grabbed some Raid. Spray, smash, pick up with napkins (did I mention this thing was huge?) and promptly flushed it down the toilet. Fear level 2/10. 
  

Final Thoughts

I can tell that FRM 4.9 is a massive upgrade from previous versions. Normally, when i faced resistance in past FRMs my subconscious would cooperate to an extent and then fight off the programming which led to loads and loads of resistance. Today I resisted but I still moved forward. Hoping this continues. Thanks for reading.

 K-Trian,I am so deeply grateful to you for sharing as openly,as clearing as ya do,including your beautiful formatting, damn man,I feel like a  3rd grader when I see how you post,but hey Im digging it , right on thru my heart. today I feel deeply at ease and groovy as hell,dude. I swear to yawl som-a-that FRM 4.9 is rubbin off,going with me,in the last 7 days,noticably!! empowering!!

I feel so thank you for so many things right now,deep down,I have tears in my eyes of relief and thanks as I listen to Joni Mitchell's "Miles of Isles' album from 1974. I Just wanted to say Peace and Love Man, you are indeed one Deep & aware MutherFo!! That goes for RTBoss,too!! (Not trying to exclude any one here!) Thank you!!

OF is stupendous and as I've said to Shannon,once before and Im shure I will dig in and say it again.... this FRM 4.9 is historic  and thats my deep & aware fellow is some real ,real shit!! good day and more healing power to ya, along your journey, this week and month,welcome to July!!! Peace.  Keith.