06-23-2020, 04:22 AM
After having to do a reset, this is day 1 of carpetbombing.
I am noticing how fear affects everything around me. And within me. I really want to heal my fear, but I do not know how. I cannot yet afford Overcoming Fear, but I AM working on getting a job to get up the money. If none of my current applications pull through, I may have to spend 30+ hours a week doing online audio transcriptions for $12 per hour.
Otherwise, here is my best solution: go out and cold approach beautiful women. The idea would be to face my fear of rejection. Whether ir not I get their number or rejected is beside the point. If anything, getting rejected may actually HELP to process my fear by realizing it. If I get their number, SCORE LOL!
If this does not work, my next solution is more drastic: jump out of a fucking plane. I was told last night by an ex-coworker friend of mine that jumping out of a plane cured his fear of heights. I dunno if it will help me to process my fear enough to make the transformation I wanted to make though. If it works as hoped, the fear should turn into a mixture of excitement, sexual arousal and sense of adventure as the unconscious becomes conscious. Otherwise, it is not extreme enough, in which case I don't know what to do.
I am noticing how fear affects everything around me. And within me. I really want to heal my fear, but I do not know how. I cannot yet afford Overcoming Fear, but I AM working on getting a job to get up the money. If none of my current applications pull through, I may have to spend 30+ hours a week doing online audio transcriptions for $12 per hour.
Otherwise, here is my best solution: go out and cold approach beautiful women. The idea would be to face my fear of rejection. Whether ir not I get their number or rejected is beside the point. If anything, getting rejected may actually HELP to process my fear by realizing it. If I get their number, SCORE LOL!
If this does not work, my next solution is more drastic: jump out of a fucking plane. I was told last night by an ex-coworker friend of mine that jumping out of a plane cured his fear of heights. I dunno if it will help me to process my fear enough to make the transformation I wanted to make though. If it works as hoped, the fear should turn into a mixture of excitement, sexual arousal and sense of adventure as the unconscious becomes conscious. Otherwise, it is not extreme enough, in which case I don't know what to do.
