06-21-2020, 05:15 AM
Day 21 (1)
I've had a significant case of "why bother" yesterday. And I've grown to realize that if I'm not in a mental state when it is obvious to me why should I bother then it is better to let go than trying to fight it.
For example I've had this "why bother" thought today as well but I easily fought it back. How? Because my reasoning behind NoFap is not to get long streaks or things like that, it's about breaking the habit. Masturbating once every couple of days would be relatively fine (for now), but every day or every other day? Nope, this won't fly.
2 years back I was in unhappy relationship, not because she was a bad girl but because I didn't felt fulfilled in it. To convinced myself this is fine I'd drink myself to sleep. I don't know if I became alcoholic at that point, I hope I didn't, but I gained 10 kg from beer and chips I was eating in front of my computer. Now I've burned that fat off and I don't remember the last time I've bought myself beer in order to drink myself to sleep. I've broken that habit. Just a couple of more habits, less harmful once on the first glance, to go.
I've had a significant case of "why bother" yesterday. And I've grown to realize that if I'm not in a mental state when it is obvious to me why should I bother then it is better to let go than trying to fight it.
For example I've had this "why bother" thought today as well but I easily fought it back. How? Because my reasoning behind NoFap is not to get long streaks or things like that, it's about breaking the habit. Masturbating once every couple of days would be relatively fine (for now), but every day or every other day? Nope, this won't fly.
2 years back I was in unhappy relationship, not because she was a bad girl but because I didn't felt fulfilled in it. To convinced myself this is fine I'd drink myself to sleep. I don't know if I became alcoholic at that point, I hope I didn't, but I gained 10 kg from beer and chips I was eating in front of my computer. Now I've burned that fat off and I don't remember the last time I've bought myself beer in order to drink myself to sleep. I've broken that habit. Just a couple of more habits, less harmful once on the first glance, to go.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
