06-08-2020, 11:50 AM
Day 8
I know I was supposed to post daily but I'm constantly forgetting about it. On Friday I was out with my friend so I have excuse, but this weekend I have none. Worst of all I had these thoughts of "I need to post" and forgetting about it 2 seconds later. Oh well.
Past few days were... weird. Magical almost. Hear me out on that one. I've seen the most beautiful rainbow in my life. I've found huge and healthy four leaf clover without even trying during my walk. These two things are weird enough. But then I have found on Tinder this girl.
She didn't swep me yet and perhaps she never will, but it's so strange how you are on Tinder for something like 2 months, even went for a date, and only now you find a girl that really picks your interest. And that based only on some pics and short description. I've experienced something like that before and nothing came of it, but now, maybe?
On one hand it's a feeling as if the Universe was splitting and in one version I get to come to contact with her (and either going somewhere with it or screwing it up) and in another I don't and I have no idea in which Universe I am right now. On the other hand I feel pathetic, like almost obsessing on a girl I've never even met based on so little. I don't think someone sound would behave like this.
At any rate I'm curious where this will go and if the magic continues. I want this to happen, I'd love to see the challenge of dating someone who impressed me as opposed to dating for dating sake. Last time I was in similar situation it worked - I got what I wanted as long as fear did not kick in and I started to try too hard - being needy. Now I want it too, I want to try, I do want that.
I know I was supposed to post daily but I'm constantly forgetting about it. On Friday I was out with my friend so I have excuse, but this weekend I have none. Worst of all I had these thoughts of "I need to post" and forgetting about it 2 seconds later. Oh well.
Past few days were... weird. Magical almost. Hear me out on that one. I've seen the most beautiful rainbow in my life. I've found huge and healthy four leaf clover without even trying during my walk. These two things are weird enough. But then I have found on Tinder this girl.
She didn't swep me yet and perhaps she never will, but it's so strange how you are on Tinder for something like 2 months, even went for a date, and only now you find a girl that really picks your interest. And that based only on some pics and short description. I've experienced something like that before and nothing came of it, but now, maybe?
On one hand it's a feeling as if the Universe was splitting and in one version I get to come to contact with her (and either going somewhere with it or screwing it up) and in another I don't and I have no idea in which Universe I am right now. On the other hand I feel pathetic, like almost obsessing on a girl I've never even met based on so little. I don't think someone sound would behave like this.
At any rate I'm curious where this will go and if the magic continues. I want this to happen, I'd love to see the challenge of dating someone who impressed me as opposed to dating for dating sake. Last time I was in similar situation it worked - I got what I wanted as long as fear did not kick in and I started to try too hard - being needy. Now I want it too, I want to try, I do want that.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
