04-11-2020, 06:04 PM
Where do I even begin? I think there are 3 topics I need to talk about.
1) These pauses between sub runs are actually kinda cool. They give you time to think and reconsider, to get some distance. To recognize what goals you wanna achieve next instead of keep on keeping on with the old ones. What does it mean to me? I'm not sure yet. I think I really need to look through the subs library to see what I could do in May. next run of LTU seems like the best idea, but what goals would be at the forefront I'm not sure yet. I have too many ideas and not enough energy for them all.
2) I'm at my mother's right now. I love it and I hate it at the same time. I love it as it's an opportunity to change my perspective on things, to get a break from my habits. I hate it cause I feel like I'm wasting time and I feel like I'm suffocating in too little of a room for me. I wanna be there for my mother but I'm useless while in here, without any of my habits. I wanna get back to the city ASAP. So probably in Tuesday.
3) I met this girl on Tinder. If I'm reading signs well she's helluva into me, but she's extrovert and I've been proven wrong in the past. At any rate I don't wanna get serious with her. She's very nice and I enjoy talking with her. What I don't enjoy is that she is... complicated. Probably depressed, possibly bipolar, most certainly extremely emotional. I've seen already what my Messiah Complex does with me around girls like that and unless I fall for her for some reason I will not be pursuing her. In a perfect world I'd be able to keep her as my friend. We'll see where it will go in the next weeks.
1) These pauses between sub runs are actually kinda cool. They give you time to think and reconsider, to get some distance. To recognize what goals you wanna achieve next instead of keep on keeping on with the old ones. What does it mean to me? I'm not sure yet. I think I really need to look through the subs library to see what I could do in May. next run of LTU seems like the best idea, but what goals would be at the forefront I'm not sure yet. I have too many ideas and not enough energy for them all.
2) I'm at my mother's right now. I love it and I hate it at the same time. I love it as it's an opportunity to change my perspective on things, to get a break from my habits. I hate it cause I feel like I'm wasting time and I feel like I'm suffocating in too little of a room for me. I wanna be there for my mother but I'm useless while in here, without any of my habits. I wanna get back to the city ASAP. So probably in Tuesday.
3) I met this girl on Tinder. If I'm reading signs well she's helluva into me, but she's extrovert and I've been proven wrong in the past. At any rate I don't wanna get serious with her. She's very nice and I enjoy talking with her. What I don't enjoy is that she is... complicated. Probably depressed, possibly bipolar, most certainly extremely emotional. I've seen already what my Messiah Complex does with me around girls like that and unless I fall for her for some reason I will not be pursuing her. In a perfect world I'd be able to keep her as my friend. We'll see where it will go in the next weeks.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
