LTU5 Journal - The hope

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Day 67 (4th day of 11th cycle) - 3 month complete round overview

I started LTU on the 2nd of January. The reason I say Day 67 above is that I restarted counting after a 1 week break because of surgery. However it means that I am running the subliminal for 3 months and I am going to take a 1 week break after the 2 off days of ASRB and start again for another 3 month.

Before reviewing again what the program's goals are I am going to write points of what I experienced:

• Self esteem boost. It was visible from the first cycle. At first it was going away but later on it just stabilized. I can say my self-esteem was at 2/10 and is now 5/10, 10 being what I experienced most in my life and it was an experience during my DMSI run.
  
• Alpha traits and assertiveness is at a very good level, even better after finishing with AM6. It stabilized as well and I am happy with it. It could be better but that's not the goal of the program from what I know. Also lots of different parameters play role.
  
• USLM (the goals). From all the goals I put in place from time to time as I modified them in the middle of the run, only one was worked and achieved. This makes me curious if my goal setting was not right or if I was doing something wrong with my thinking or the way I approach setting and achieving goals. The one goal that was achieved was 100% work of USLM. It literally put me down and instructed me to do what needed to be done. It was a great experience.
  
• Sex drive was off the roof for some days, not sure why. Great experience, I learnt how important and how powerful this energy is and how someone can use it to achieve goals or anything they want in life
  
• Healing was ongoing during the period but all over the place. I know that I was healing matters related to self-esteem, confidence, fear of rejection, shame. During some cycles (2-3) the healing was a bit intense but manageable. 
  
• Blocking procrastination and generating motivation. What I experienced was huge at some point. You can read more about it here. Unfortunately it subsided and didn't surface again yet.
  
• Maturity, maturity, maturity. This was a big benefit for me. A great trait, improvement in the way of thinking. I am sure it will help me a lot with the rest of my life in different areas like career, relationships and decision making in general
  

Now, by taking a look at the different programs and description of the program I will become aware of areas that I might have benefit and didn't notice it:

• Disconnect from negative stress: I believe this worked on some level as I was somehow shielding myself from drama in general during this period. I somehow didn't want to get involved when something was worrying or had drama. With financial situation and especially with what is going with the pandemic now. I just somehow block it and think of how to act around it rather than investing in it and acting like a victim.
  
• Genuine Gratitude & Appreciation: Very few and limited cases of gratitude expression. However I know that they came from that as they seemed unusual. I was grateful for stuff happening when I tend not to. Again, very few cases.
  
• Anger Management: Yes. On some occasions I just decided not to care or get involved when anger emotions were coming up.
  
• Overcome Victim mentality: Yes on some occasions.
  

Overall the run was good. It miraculously saved me from a lot (again, a lot!) of trouble and expenses life at some point with a choice I made. If it was my first experience with subliminal programs I would be astound. But as I work with the best programs here I just believe that way more can be achieved in the long-run.

I say the run was just good because I always work with the best tools from other modalities as well. I have big expectations. I've seen miracles in my life on many occasions with other tools. For that reason my judging of what is amazing is different than the average person's.

I will keep going for another round of three months. Hopefully I will complete four rounds for a year.