EP UMS Journal pt. 2

[Zubrowka]

Okay. I see your point Zabrowka. Thanks for the advice

That being said, I don't think YOU quite understand me. Part of this is because I am deliberately being vague about what I am looking to do and attempting to learn, so as to be respectful towards the rules of this website.

The stuff I am looking to learn and want to get good at BECAUSE I WANT TO GET GOOD AT IT AND FIND IT FASCINATING is not stuff that is understood or mastered by just simply living your life. It is highly complex material that can MOST CERTAINLY be applied to living one's life, but it is not stuff you just do without knowing anything about it and figure out. It is stuff you HAVE TO STUDY.

It would be as if I had a really good math teacher leave me, and I wanted to become an expert mathematician, but I couldn't talk about math on the forum so I was vague about it and your advice would be to just learn it by living my life. That is NOT how you learn advanced math, I don't think. Although I am no mathematician, so I would not know. But I'm pretty sure this works as an analogy. Study is essential to the subject I am interested in getting good at.

That being said, you are still giving solid advice. And I can still see how what you said still applies in other senses to my situation, so I am grateful for your insight on the matter. Just understand that your impression of what I mean is partially based on a lack of information.

I still intend to find resources on the subject which holds my interest. I will refer ro it as "math" with the quotation marks around it so it is understood I am not literally talking about math from now on.

I have full intention of getting good at this "math" not because I am "seeking answers outside of myself" but because I want to learn how to do it.

I hope that makes sense.

Thank you for your support and your valuable insight.

Sure thing I got you, guessing it has to do with some esoteric stuff. I just got the impression that you are doing it as a cop-out for dealing with your emotional problems, google spiritual bypass if you are interested - but that can only you know. Thanks for explaining it in a good way!

PS. other than that I'm all for following what you are passionate about, thats awesome! I also read a great deal of books on chakras and stuff for a while, it's an interesting framework!