EP UMS Journal pt. 2

[Zubrowka]

Thanks Zabrowka. And I'm sure I can find a way to get in touch with my teacher once they are done kicking ass.

But how I intend to build myself up into somebody I care to be is another question.

You are right: I DO have everything I need. Both teachers have left me with plenty of information. I do not need my German teacher until I have AT LEAST made MAJOR cleanings on my lower 2 chakras. And as for my badass teacher, I do not need them right now. We all need my teacher to do what they are doing right now, or things are going to get depressingly bad. Still, once I really clear my root chakra blockages enough to focus primarilly on my sacral chakra, I was hoping this teacher would be able to help me because they seem to REALLY know their shit. Now I have to figure out what to do after grounding myself not just to progress in things like money, chakra clearing, healing, creative stuff, fitness, manifestation/LoA etc. But also in the things this teacher specializes in. I can find resources, but damn. My badass teacher was a VERY valuable source of very uniquely useful methodry for such practices and information. Still, I have past advice I can utilize, recommended resources, other personally discovered resources, I have some ideas for who I might study and what I might read up on, people I might want to contact for training or at least utilize services of once I have the money, etc. I'm sure I will be fine. I can find my own unique eclectic approach and utilize it until I can get back into contact with them. Most likely once they win, or at least once I have a shit ton of money to fund they're "war chest" so to speak, I can find a way to contact them again. I know my badass teacher isn't rich. Although they ARE very resourceful and highly disciplined, cunning and intelligent. So are their enemies, but not on their level.
Still, they could probably REALLY use money. Money is Batman's superpower. That should ler us kniw how useful it can be.

I just wish I'd bothered to make a comprehensive list of recommended resources before they'd left. I just didn't expect that to happen out of the blue all of a sudden. Nor for what happened to cause them to leave to haplen so soon, although I'm glad it happened.  

Oh well. Work with what you got, right? I have all I need and I'm sure I can find out more.

The stuff I probably MOST need them for is mostly really advanced stuff I'm not nearly ready for anyway.

I can find my own way to the point where I'm ready to heavily utilize more of their training.

Thabks for the support and encouragement Zabrowka.

One thing I've learned is that no one, how much you hope and want it, will ever know you and what you want and need from life other than yourself. That can be a scary insight, but a much needed one. When you have accepted that, you will find ways to discover more about yourself and what you should do, or not do, next.