EP UMS Journal pt. 2

[Zubrowka]

Day 3 of carpetbombing. Got my scheduling mixed up. Gonna take longer to bloom so I can get back on schedule because I'm using Google calendar to track this.

Anyway... I was being INCREDIBLY NEGATIVE LATELY, especially today. Because of this, my online mentor from Germany decided he was tired of my negativity and in my current state, I lack the discernment necessary to have a productive discussion with. So he bounced.

My OTHER teacher I was making friends with online? We were talking about some serious power plays going on behind the scenes on the global scale, then something MAJOUR happened. Next thing I know, teacher says this: "I'm off to war"

And when I responded with: \m/

They logged off.

I should have said: "Let me know when you win"

Opportunity lost.

So both my mentors just bounced. Damn. First one? Fine. He taught me all I needed at this point in my life before I can move forward and can't really help me any more at this point anyway.

My other teacher though...

I was learning useful shit! But this "war" is far more important.

*****. Now how do I learn more of the stuff they were teaching me? It was REALLY good stuff! Oh well, they taught me a lot already. Surely enough to get me started.

Gotta gst into my body and heal my fear first. Then I gotta work on my sacral chakra and when I get up the money, certain healing techniques.

I also have to focus on making money. SUPER important right now.

Gotta think of what to best spend money on too when the relief fund money comes in. That's my chance to get something really useful. Better spend it wisely. I wonder when UMSv2 is coming out and how much it'll cost?

A good friend of me once told me, when I was in a similar mode as I think you are now - going after different books, different schooling, mentors, etc - that all that you need, you already have inside of yourself. 

So don't sweat it if you loose a mentor. People come, and people go. If you start living with the notion that you already have everything you need inside, that loss will not seem so huge anymore. 

Meditate, listen, tune in to yourself. There you will find the answers you are looking for.