03-23-2020, 02:31 AM
Day 58 (1st day of 10th cycle of a rerun)
I was lately questioning if the self-esteem effects are still on, not because I wasn't feeling a nice self esteem boost but because I was feeling the exact opposite. The last two days during the break I was seeing myself in the mirror and feeling bad about how i look. That's another solid confirmation that the effects are kind of deteriorating at this phase)
Maturity is the theme I noticed it have been working on me the last 3-4 weeks. I noticed it now, the last few days as I can observe the difference in my thoughts in comparison to my close past. The change is so big that i notice it on so many things and so many levels. I notice the difference on how I was acting just 2-3 months ago and all my actions and way of thinking the past 2 years. I am so much more mature. I did nothing to change/improve that. LTU is 100% responsible for this.
I will introduce a new goal. Not a slight change on my main goal or anything pushing me towards it. I will keep going with it though and introduce a second goal. The goal will be to become conscious of making decisions that are for my highest good and act on them instead of the opposite. I am very spontaneous on taking decisions without thinking and I want to break this pattern. I noticed in the past that sometimes by just being conscious I take better decisions so when I was aware and asked if this is for my highest good, made me stop, think and take the right decision (not always but a huge improvement).
I was lately questioning if the self-esteem effects are still on, not because I wasn't feeling a nice self esteem boost but because I was feeling the exact opposite. The last two days during the break I was seeing myself in the mirror and feeling bad about how i look. That's another solid confirmation that the effects are kind of deteriorating at this phase)
Maturity is the theme I noticed it have been working on me the last 3-4 weeks. I noticed it now, the last few days as I can observe the difference in my thoughts in comparison to my close past. The change is so big that i notice it on so many things and so many levels. I notice the difference on how I was acting just 2-3 months ago and all my actions and way of thinking the past 2 years. I am so much more mature. I did nothing to change/improve that. LTU is 100% responsible for this.
I will introduce a new goal. Not a slight change on my main goal or anything pushing me towards it. I will keep going with it though and introduce a second goal. The goal will be to become conscious of making decisions that are for my highest good and act on them instead of the opposite. I am very spontaneous on taking decisions without thinking and I want to break this pattern. I noticed in the past that sometimes by just being conscious I take better decisions so when I was aware and asked if this is for my highest good, made me stop, think and take the right decision (not always but a huge improvement).
