01-19-2020, 09:07 AM
Feeling pretty wonky today, and not in a pleasant way. Probably DMSI is hitting onto something that's unpleasant (and by "probably" I mean, "definitely" 
). Kinda feels as if some infantile part of me was experiencing pain it's unable to express other than by mewling or bawling. At times it gets covered up by more recent stuff, but I know enough about Freudo-Lacanian psychoanalysis by now to realize it's just the mechanism of repression and substitution at work, lol. I did perform a deep clearing today, and it seems to have helped a bit, but still.
Did that charity gig (not a big hassle, really), "G"'s dragging me to go that s(w)ingers club next week again (I mean, she wanted me to go tonight, but I've got work tomorrow in the AM). Should be fun.
I did only manage to do 4 loops of DMSI these past two days due to being busy, and I think that 6 may be of assistance, so I'll try to do 6 whenever I can.
Interestingly enough, I'm noticing that these past three days (so since I started up this 2ndry ASRB 8-day period) when I'm about to wake up, I have dreams related to that SLA girl. Three days in a row? Weirdness! Something may be up. Trouble is, I don't really know what they're driving at, because they occur right before I have to get up and I need to cut them short in order to do so. Nothing untoward in those dreams, though as far as I can tell.
). Kinda feels as if some infantile part of me was experiencing pain it's unable to express other than by mewling or bawling. At times it gets covered up by more recent stuff, but I know enough about Freudo-Lacanian psychoanalysis by now to realize it's just the mechanism of repression and substitution at work, lol. I did perform a deep clearing today, and it seems to have helped a bit, but still.Did that charity gig (not a big hassle, really), "G"'s dragging me to go that s(w)ingers club next week again (I mean, she wanted me to go tonight, but I've got work tomorrow in the AM
). Should be fun.I did only manage to do 4 loops of DMSI these past two days due to being busy, and I think that 6 may be of assistance, so I'll try to do 6 whenever I can.
Interestingly enough, I'm noticing that these past three days (so since I started up this 2ndry ASRB 8-day period) when I'm about to wake up, I have dreams related to that SLA girl. Three days in a row? Weirdness! Something may be up. Trouble is, I don't really know what they're driving at, because they occur right before I have to get up and I need to cut them short in order to do so. Nothing untoward in those dreams, though as far as I can tell.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
