01-16-2020, 02:26 PM
Day 16
I was meaning to write an update for some time now but somehow I didn't find much time or will to do it. A shame to be honest.
I'm kind of torn. What I'm doing nowadays is extreme single mindedness. I set myself to lose weight and I'm doing great job of it. Well, there are no clear results yet but my exercises and hard and fulfilling - I break my past records and I'm very consistent. I eat less and better quality. Normally lack of results would worsen my morale but not now. I know this is months long struggle and I'm up for it.
Moreover there are other benefits out from it. Just to name few my sleep got better and I'm at 7th day of NoFap with ease while normally it would be a real challenge. Also I'm slowly removing useless stuff I was following on my social media - I'm not up to give up on likes of Facebook or Reddit but I can filter it.
At the same time though other areas of life suffer. My productivity is lowest since I got over my dad's death and I haven't read anything worthwhile in a while.
Part of me thinks that it was a mistake to think that I can do multiple goals at the same time, as I did in Autumn. Another part of me thinks however that I should strife towards it. I'm not sure. I feel comfortable with this single mindedness. In coming weeks I'll see how well it serves me in a long term.
I was meaning to write an update for some time now but somehow I didn't find much time or will to do it. A shame to be honest.
I'm kind of torn. What I'm doing nowadays is extreme single mindedness. I set myself to lose weight and I'm doing great job of it. Well, there are no clear results yet but my exercises and hard and fulfilling - I break my past records and I'm very consistent. I eat less and better quality. Normally lack of results would worsen my morale but not now. I know this is months long struggle and I'm up for it.
Moreover there are other benefits out from it. Just to name few my sleep got better and I'm at 7th day of NoFap with ease while normally it would be a real challenge. Also I'm slowly removing useless stuff I was following on my social media - I'm not up to give up on likes of Facebook or Reddit but I can filter it.
At the same time though other areas of life suffer. My productivity is lowest since I got over my dad's death and I haven't read anything worthwhile in a while.
Part of me thinks that it was a mistake to think that I can do multiple goals at the same time, as I did in Autumn. Another part of me thinks however that I should strife towards it. I'm not sure. I feel comfortable with this single mindedness. In coming weeks I'll see how well it serves me in a long term.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
