12-23-2019, 06:25 AM
I'm at my mother's. Well, I'm there since Friday. And it's been just as one'd expect - kinda sad and absent. This thing this year, it ain't Christmas. It's just a couple of days off.
I've played DMSI to try it out as there is no news on new LTU and I don't feel much. That's why I will not start proper run of it - I'm neither aligned with DMSI goals nor I want to run it long enough to see results. I'll run it for fun. I might find it useful next week.
As for work, now I have 2 week long vacation, up until 7th of January I think. That's grand for two reasons. First I can use time to reorganize my priorities, stop chasing geese and get some larger picture - feat quite hard when you have backlog of things to do. Secondly, I'll be able to use this time to set priorities for myself in the 2020. I have already chosen my second commitment.
I have a lot of ideas what to do, but I often forget about them. Now, whenever I'll have an idea - that I should do something or buy something or whatever - I will write it down in a notebook. When I accomplish it, I will simply cross it out. And every week or two I will sit down, tear down the pages and rewrite them all. I want these small ideas to be kept in my head and I want a "pressure" to do them". Easy example - I'm often in a position where I have time and while not bored I could spend it more usefully, I just have no idea how. Now I'll have the notebook to give me ideas on what I can do. Simple yet brilliant.
One more thing about my work. Before the vacation I've talked with my older colleagues and I found them... Let's just say they are all good people and all but I don't wanna end up like them. They are not bitter but cynical I guess. They are their work. And it's funny that while I was trying to do this very thing for the past 4 months the very thought of the end result scares me. One more reason to maybe go and try my luck somewhere else. Year and a half till that choice so there is no rush. It's just that... Do I want a job that is fulfilling but you become it or do I want 9-to-5 job that I will hate but after I'm done with it I'm done.
Right now I'm procrastinating and I enjoy the hell out of it.
I've played DMSI to try it out as there is no news on new LTU and I don't feel much. That's why I will not start proper run of it - I'm neither aligned with DMSI goals nor I want to run it long enough to see results. I'll run it for fun. I might find it useful next week.
As for work, now I have 2 week long vacation, up until 7th of January I think. That's grand for two reasons. First I can use time to reorganize my priorities, stop chasing geese and get some larger picture - feat quite hard when you have backlog of things to do. Secondly, I'll be able to use this time to set priorities for myself in the 2020. I have already chosen my second commitment.
I have a lot of ideas what to do, but I often forget about them. Now, whenever I'll have an idea - that I should do something or buy something or whatever - I will write it down in a notebook. When I accomplish it, I will simply cross it out. And every week or two I will sit down, tear down the pages and rewrite them all. I want these small ideas to be kept in my head and I want a "pressure" to do them". Easy example - I'm often in a position where I have time and while not bored I could spend it more usefully, I just have no idea how. Now I'll have the notebook to give me ideas on what I can do. Simple yet brilliant.
One more thing about my work. Before the vacation I've talked with my older colleagues and I found them... Let's just say they are all good people and all but I don't wanna end up like them. They are not bitter but cynical I guess. They are their work. And it's funny that while I was trying to do this very thing for the past 4 months the very thought of the end result scares me. One more reason to maybe go and try my luck somewhere else. Year and a half till that choice so there is no rush. It's just that... Do I want a job that is fulfilling but you become it or do I want 9-to-5 job that I will hate but after I'm done with it I'm done.
Right now I'm procrastinating and I enjoy the hell out of it.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
